164. Test one already?

Yikes. Welcome back was more like a swift kick with an additional ten books to carry around in my new backpack. That's right...new backpaaack. I tried to find a green one. I then decided green was out and north face was in. Stylish!


I was eating dinner tonight at my grandmas. She turns to my dad and goes "Michael all the nuns are leaving the church did I tell you yet?" He turns to her straight faced and says "oh ya, march of the penguins."

hahahahah. No really...hahahhahhaha.

Dani called me the 8th wonder of the world on Friday. What an honor eh? She's my loverfriend you should be kicking yourself riiiight...now.




I find myself at a crossroads many times in my days deciphering between thoughts that I shouldn't be concerning myself with, and thoughts that could mean everything if I spend enough time that I obviously don't have on them. Let me tell you this now, I usually choose the first one to ponder upon. As do most of us...take a look. There are a million pieces within us making us tick. There are pieces of past (despite the many attempts for humans to claim that they are moved on from it), there are pieces of present, of future wishes (those shouldn't be held too tightly...they will change I tell you), pieces of desire, of loyalty, of truth and lies and the fine lines in between.

I feel like I'm in a silly place with that wonderful Gnarles Barkley music video where the man rips out his heart and places it on the table in front of the woman who just broke up with him. He says "this is yours now". She is confused and he explains that from now on no matter who he is with or who he meets they are in a comparison to that girl until they both find a new person to fill the void if it's at all possible. How ironic and bold and wise that man is. If it were ever that easy, in any situation...to just take our hearts right out of our bodies and give them to somebody who they actually belong to. Anyone knows that the minute they've discovered that the human life can actually feel for another in a loving sense (by loving I mean not only concerning with yourself in a day to day manner), the heart that belonged to one...now belongs to two now and forever more whether it be the same person your whole life...or many throughout years. You can try and take it back...take it back to one...but good luck on that. Mind over matter I suppose. And when the body is tired exercise your mind. What I'm trying to say is that I am in a position now a days that stands back and watches people from a distance. I'm an observer. That could be such a dangerous place. Nevertheless I feel safe for now...in me...with me.

ramble ramble ramble ramble.


I feel like these posts just carry so much stuff in them. They turn from happy to sappy in the blink of an eye and that's why it doesn't matter what kind of day you have...this will cure it.


creative and fun and I just want to dance, dammit. So I shall. =]







"individually wrapped placed in neat little rows becoming a piece of everything that grows, some numbers, a name, to indicate you played the game, came empty handed and left the same, a soul is a soul and a shell is a shell, the border in between is full of everything you felt"




Adios pretty people. Write on til we all say right on. Have a nice week and create some good out there...we all could use it!


Peace, blessings, truth, and some captain crunch. =]