123. Music 117.

Soooo Music Lit is pretty dope. But sometimes my mind wanders and tells me... "Ashley, don't take notes right now...talk to taylor on your sidekick 3."

Therefore...I do.

----------------------- 8:44 am -----------------------
asoulfoolwonder: You up?
aytaytayy: unfortunately
asoulfoolwonder: Go on my dresser....there's something for you
aytaytayy: haha, im not quite UP, i mean im in bed awake
asoulfoolwonder: Okay well when you get UP
asoulfoolwonder: Haha
aytaytayy: oooo what is it
aytaytayy: are you in school
aytaytayy: shame shame aiming in class
asoulfoolwonder: Hahaha
asoulfoolwonder: Yaaa me and my football player friend
aytaytayy: awww i didn't know you have friends
asoulfoolwonder: Ew
aytaytayy: caaaayyute
asoulfoolwonder: Aahaahahha
aytaytayy: hahahahaha
asoulfoolwonder: haha wow
aytaytayy: dude, come home. class isn't worth it. come home. come home.
asoulfoolwonder: Ya riiiight
aytaytayy: im jus sayin, its a prittay solid idea if ya ask me
asoulfoolwonder: Girl, you so prittay like modewl.
aytaytayy: haahhahahahhaahahahahahaha
aytaytayy: whaaaeva yooh liii, we dooh fo yooh
asoulfoolwonder: Hahahahahahahahaha
asoulfoolwonder: Oh honayy....thas why you no haf no boyfrieeeen.
aytaytayy: chewaleaada, somethaan
asoulfoolwonder: Ahahahahaha
asoulfoolwonder: Hahahahahahhahahah
aytaytayy: im gonna go jump on kaitlynn, good idea, no?
asoulfoolwonder: Hmm great idea.
asoulfoolwonder: Sing her a song
----------------------- 8:54 am -----------------------
aytaytayy: haha she yelled at me
asoulfoolwonder: Aaaha....I bet
asoulfoolwonder: Tell her dani told you to do it. She won't be mad
anymore
aytaytayy: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha
aytaytayy: omg
aytaytayy: haahahahahahaahahahahaha
asoulfoolwonder: =]
asoulfoolwonder: Lol
aytaytayy: kay im up
asoulfoolwonder: K good
asoulfoolwonder: Go look
aytaytayy: kaay
----------------------- 9:02 am -----------------------
aytaytayy: thaaaaaaaaanks booooooooo! =D
asoulfoolwonder: Yeaaah yayayayaya
asoulfoolwonder: My teacher looks like bob saget
asoulfoolwonder: True story
aytaytayy: saaawear?!
aytaytayy: take a pitcha!
asoulfoolwonder: Yup. I started singing the full house theme song.
"Everywhere you looooooook everywhere there's a heart there's a heart, a
hand to hold on tooooo!"
----------------------- 9:10 am -----------------------
aytaytayy: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
aytaytayy: omg
asoulfoolwonder: Hahahah
aytaytayy: thas hella funny
aytaytayy: you really would tho
aytaytayy: haahaaha
aytaytayy: aha
asoulfoolwonder: Yeah he started looking around for little michelle and
stephanie
aytaytayy: yaya
aytaytayy: hahhahahahahaha
aytaytayy: and comet
aytaytayy: is the classroom hellla clean?
aytaytayy: cause danny tanner is the cleanliest man everr
asoulfoolwonder: Aaahahahhahahaahaha omg yes
asoulfoolwonder: And vicky brought him coffee
aytaytayy: haahahaha, was he late to class 'cos he had to do wake up san
fraaaan
asoulfoolwonder: "Waaaake up da na na...na...na na na na na na naaaa"
he's got to head to his morning show after this class
asoulfoolwonder: Aahaahhahaha
aytaytayy: ohh i see
aytaytayy: hahaha
asoulfoolwonder: Hahaha wow
asoulfoolwonder: =]







Hahaha.

122. The time is now.

Summer has arrived. Today was my first day of summer school. Remind me again why I'm doing this? Its not a bad class though. It's music lit. It's all about the rise of R&B music as it made its way across europe originating from African culture. It trails through blues, gospel, and even rock as its changed and...not changed throughout history. Its pretty dope. If you know me...you know I'm all about good music so this should be an interesting three weeks.

I've been trying to enjoy my time off before work starts in 2 weeks. I am ready for it to get going though. I'm itching to get back into a pool and have it truly feel like summer.



Sooooo I'm starting a group. Not a band. A group. Very different. Yes. Three people in it so far. Aaaaand...we will be making tracks in the next few weeks. You heard it here first. Like Ryan Leslie said..."they try and put me in a box; its impossible."
Sure is...catch it.









=]

121. So long spring...

Hello summer. =]

I shall take these next 5 days or so and relax. Summer classes start tuesday. Does it ever end? Nopeeee. I wouldnt want it any other way though.

Last night in my last interpersonal speech class we had a bunch of final wrap up activities. One was bringing in an object that represented the class...in our eyes. I brought in magic pencils. Yep...magic. They were some cool colored pencils I found at Michael's earlier that day. Talk about last minute, but when an idea inspires you I suppose thats the art of..well...art itself in a sense. These pencils had three colors intertwined in each. It looked like a tie dye mess and they were mesmorizing. I explained that although this was just a "speech" class, there were many aspects that went along with speech. I never knew there were so many sides to conflict, communication, and relationships. Although there were many different aspects that go along with all of this...they all have a common meeting ground...speaking. It all comes together beautifully, and without one aspect...it would not make the art of speaking...or the pencil...whole. My professor liked it. She dugg how I sought out a deeper meaning and made a few nice final statements about how much I enjoyed the class altogether. I was the baby of the class. 20 years old. Everyone was 21 and older. They are all aspiring doctors and nurses. They've all been to great universities such as Berkeley, UCSD, UC Irvine, and so on. This class for them was a pre-rec for their med school. I felt uneasy in the beginning but I actually ended up enjoying this class more than I thought. Out of all my classes at DVC this one was definately my favorite. To wrap up before we went home last night, we all sat in a circle and one by one had to come and sit in the front of the class for 2 minutes. During those 2 minutes anyone who wanted to speak up and say something positive about the person sitting in the front..could. Its wild sitting up front having your peers speak highly of you. It takes a lot for a person to come out and express things they enjoy about you. It lifts your spirits and sometimes surprises you. It gives you a little extra push in thoughts about how you see yourself. One of the girls I got pretty close with said some very nice things. After knowing me for 6 months...she got pretty good grasp on who I was from mere small talk and quick exchanges of thoughts and ideas. She told me that she always saw me as older. She always looked at me like I had already finished college and was onto bigger and better things. She said no matter what I try and do...I wont only succeed in doing it...but I will do well. She told me that I am going to make the world proud and she has no doubt in her mind that I am going to sail through the next two years of undergrad and do amazing things in life. It was a nice little reminder that I am doing this...I can do this...I will do this. Very positive, cool way to end my time at DVC. I'm proud.



Playlist:
1. Come on Girl - Taio Cruz.
2. It's love - Ryan Leslie.
3. Break the Ice - Britany Spears.
4. It's up to you - Ray J.
5. So Amazing - Jagged Edge.
6. Get em girl remix - Lunch ft Ray J.

Most people like when I put up a bunch of hip hop stuff and R&B..so I do. Buuut if you want to listen to what I listen to 90% of the time...heres a playlist of it.

1. Hallelujah - Kate Voegele.
2. Tennis Court Soundtrack - Daphne Loves Derby.
3. The Truth - India Arie.
4. Hosana - Hillsong United.
5. Whether you fall - Tracy Bonham.
6. Near to you - A Fine Frenzy.
7. For the Moments I Feel Faint - Relient K.
8. Naked as we Came - Iron and Wine.
9. Purify me - India Arie.
10. Hallelujah - Paramore.




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120. Hahahaha.

So dope.

119. Beaming, yo.

Things are looking up at mid-week. Everything is falling into place with a few unexpected surprises. Good surprises that is. Two more finals left and one presentation tonight. Flying by and I'm finally in control of the flight. Kaitlynn and Kelly stood up and have agreed to paint the letters on them. So I have my sister and my wife helping me out. Oh...and I'm making dani paint an A on her stomach and be the first letter. She'd look cute like that.


And stop trying to find a lollipop remix. Whoever thought that gabrial antonio did a tight remix was sort of trippin. Here. Let me give you something. Kaitlynn...as promised...your man. Still blows me away..










Haha. Youre welcome.

118. Breakdown.

Stress...a combination of many things.

Finals, Summer, Work, Summer school, A new school, A new home, Relationships, Friends, Ties to be saved, Ties to be broken.


I need a vacation. Stat.

Not going to happen. Not anytime soon at least. The closest I get to relaxation is the 5 minutes I take to talk to God before my eyes shut around midnight each night. That counts for something though; hes a damn good listener.

Nothing in life that is ever worth it...is ever free...or easy. Everything takes work. I enjoy working because the end result is flight. The end result makes me reflect less upon times like these...times that I want to go in my cave and never return.



Ill return. Never fear. The mindset of MIA has slowly shifted and become miss stress head. Cute name huh. I thought of it myself. Just 4 more finals and I can have 3 days to myself before I start summer school. I should...do a little dance.








Tangent- Dont lie to me. Dont lie to me and then expect me to feel sorry for you. Its not a good look. I forgive everyone. I am a firm believer in forgiveness because if I made a mistake...I would like the same courtesy of someone forgiving me. Lying is a different case. I'm worth more than a cheap line of pitty. I'm worth far more than someone leaving out parts of a story to make it sound more credible...better. Just...dont do it. I dont play games and I dont have the time. Move it or lose it. And if you move it...make it true.







The start of hell week. Take one.


I'm going to need a cheering section. Possibly some folks to paint the letters A-S-H-L-E-Y on their stomachs and stand in the back of every lecture hall softly chanting while i pencil in scantrons. Anybody up for the experience?

117. Yessir she did. 8.

So here are 8 brand new tracks. Well...7 brand new tracks and "faded" just because that was my jaam.





And here are 8 older tracks. These are 8 of my all time favorite songs. I will start posting these playlists a little more. I have millions of fav tracks buut I'll start releasing them soon piece by piece.





Enjoi.

116. One foot in front of the other.

Happiness is...

- Frozen by Tami Chynn ft Akon.
- Having 3..yes..3 starbucks giftcards.
- Not liking coffee but enjoying it because its free.
- Taking Tucker and Cooper to the park.
- Dancing in my car.
- Unexpected checks that come in the mail.
- Courderoy shorts.
- One week left of school.
- Craving pizza all day then coming home and finding it.
- Starting to like pizza...maybe.
- Slurpees.
- The weather.
- Texing.
- Seeing my dad.
- Pommagranite Vitamin Water.
- Working hard and getting A's.
- Inspiration.
- Headphones...those big ones.
- Tila Tequilla.
- Praying.
- Having bad turn into good back to bad back to good.
- Tall people.
- Having Kaitlynn listen to me on the phone for half hour and not saying a word.
- Gummy bear earrrr.
- Having taylor think I'm cheating on her with another taylor.
- I love all in different ways.
- Scotch tape.
- Skipping bio.
- Wearing dirty shoes and staring at my feet akwardly.
- Victor.
- Knowing where mancalla originated from.
- Dancing in the backyard.
- Georgia.
- Old pictures.
- Clean laundrey.
- Clean room.
- Mr. Clean.
- Being healthy despite allergies that wish to own my soul.
- Writing half a poem.
- Lauryn Hill even if she does hate people like me.
- Buying sun chips at walmart to help save the planet from utter distruction by the sun.
- Tivo.
- Unexpected connections.
- Chinese chicken salad.
- Need for speed II.
- My iPod.
- Lumpia courtesy of katerina's mother.
- Summa Summa Summa tiiyyiime.
- Saying music lines in order to get my point across.
- Kaitlynn impersonating weezy.
- Tucker having a future girlfriend named Sandy.
- Darcie, Ade, and I walking around the mall liiike 15 times for cardio exercise.
- Purple.
- Green.
- Foreva, Foreva eva, Foreva eva?





kbye.

115. Last week of school.

I'm now officially in the process of my last week of being a full time student at DVC. Next week is finals. And this summer I'm only taking 3 classes which is only 9 units. I never thought this is how it would all end up. Keep reminding me to write a blog about change...or something like it from 2 years ago until now. Last year at Sonoma State I never pictured myself at DVC completing the rest of my GE. However...here I am...DVC...haha.

Okayyyy...nuff about that.

I've been listening to some different stuff lately. Some music with no words and some music from the 90's. Its crazy how soo much change has happened in the backdrops of songs. Listening to a 90s song is pretty easy to pick out from all the rest. As is 80s music and 70s and so on back in line. All the music now sounds exactly the same. Talkboxing in every rap song, sampling from old tracks..old old tracks...and collabos between different rap artists and R&B singers. Weezy is now everybodys favorite man. Not too sure how that came about. Thats besides the point. I'll stick to my old school 90s, voiceless, and acoustic songs that I've picked up in secret places. Enjoy the week.

1. Candy Rain - Soul for real.
2. Creep - TLC.
3. I wanna be down remix - Brandy, Queen Latifah, MC Lyte, YoYo.
4. Her Wings - J. Medieros.
5. Without you - Shawn Hlookoff.
6. We Gonna Make it - K.O.N.
7. Faces in the Hall - Gym Class Heroes.
8. Hurt - Shawn Desman.
9. Another Reflection - Nujabes.
10. A song about a friend - Atmosphere.






these words..

114. Baby girl, the name is

whatever you want it to be.

I cleaned today. When I say I cleaned...its kind of the understatement of the year. I started with my room and ended up making the entire house spotless. I rearranged my room, threw out the old, replaced with the new, cleaned my shoes...I dont have as many pairs as I used to have..I'm liking that. Vaccuumed every room including the hardwood. Did the dishes, the laundry, dusted, took out the recycling...and the list goes on. My parents leave tomorrow for a trip and I suppose I wanted the place to look nice while they are away. The older I get the more habits I pick up from my parents. I wasnt one of those kids who would always say "I'll never be like them" because I knew it was an inevitable thing. We become like those who influence us the most. Character is environmental. Changed?..yes. Different..no.

My dad gave me these silly words after he found out what I had done:

"Where's my daughter and what have you done with her?...Thank you Ash."

I tend to keep a lot of weird things in weird places. I found a note from my coach that he had written me when I was 10 years old. I used to carry it in my softball bag to each tournament and read it at the beginning and end of each trip. It gave me a little motivation and also kept my feet on the ground. Knowing I started in one place and ended up in a completely different level of ball made me thankful for the path of it instead of forgetting that it was a process. I do believe it is a letter that I will keep forever. I also found things like my old phones, some books I hadn't picked up in a while, a bunch of cow toys that people had gotten me as gifts, letters and old presents from past relationships. Just crazy nostalgic things that had me thinking cleaning was not so bad after all. Out with the old, in with the new.

The more I know, the less I understand.
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again.
-India Arie.


Have a beautiful end of the week everyone.


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113. Cause joints are what I rely on.

I dont rely on much except for music these days.

Last night in speech class we were speaking on friendship. We had to give a rough estimate of true friends that are in our life. This was hard. I have a lot of aquaintances, some people that I consider friends when I'm around them, and other people that are day in day out thick thin friends. I came up with the answer...8.

Cooper was one of those 8 people.

I'm kidding.

Playlist:
1. Here I am - Rick Ross.
2. Bay - Nelly.
3. Sure thing - Miguel.
4. I put on - Young Jeezy ft Kanye West.
5. California Love - Lil Wayne ft Tyga.
6. Swing - Savage.
7. Listen - Talib Kweli.
8. Wall to wall uptown remix - Chris Brown.
9. Heartbeat - Annie.
10. Dope Fiend - Johnta Austin.
11. I'm a G - Young Joc ft Bun B.
12. The one that got away - Johnta Austin.




lala im the 7th letter of the alphabet im a G.



hahahahaha whaat?


Some tracks for hump day.

112. Something like that...

We are the guardians of our own humanity.

Rather, we are the guards of our own sanity.

We are the animals. We are the creatures. We are the beings with feelings and aspirations; or lack there of for that matter.

Growing up there is a constant safety factor in knowing that there is always something to look forward to. There are always "big plans" to grow and find your perfect match, perfect career, perfect path that seems to be smooth and dark and paved with new asphalt so that the feet God has molded to you do not hurt for very long on this walk you must roam about. As we grow, we realize that nothing is that easy. Nothing is that simple to just voice out what needs to be. Its not until you wake up one morning and realize that the plans you made were simply nothing more than...just plans. In the very end you seem to be looking back rather than forward anyways. Its in that instant that you would like to believe that you are leaving something worthwhile behind. You want it all to have mattered; whatever all of "it" is.