030. Who gets roses just because?

Oh...thats me =]. 52 to be exact. I've never gotten roses. Well...maybe like one rose. I've never everrr gotten a dozen let alone 52 roses!!!! Im thankful...aaand smiling. =]

I'm a war of head versus heart
and its always the same
my head is weak
my heart always speaks
before I know what it will say.


In class today we read this essay. It was short, no more than 7 pages but it held a lot of meaning. The story was all about allusions in this world. The title was called "comfort zone". It was centered around finding a place in your lifetime that you feel completely comfortable in. I found it sort of unrealistic. As I mentioned in my last blog...one of my favorite lines is "nothing gold can stay". As people move around from home to home...person to person...material to material...comfort develops and then erases. We work towards feeling this security. The essay held allusions such as the characters from peanuts. In peanuts, charlie brown and his friends live in this world where adults dont exist. That in itself is so unrealistic that it becomes so enjoyable. The children (lucy, charlie, linus) are actually adults trapped in these small bodies. Charles Shultz, the creater of peanuts, said that Charlie was a 55 year old man struggling with never reaching his dreams based upon the fact of discomfort. He often dreams of kicking this football that is always taken away from him causing charlie to fall on his back. It was all so eye opening. No wonder people never like to leave whats comfortable. Once they do...its a chance they take running the risk of never getting that back.

What age did you learn to walk at? Most people walk between the ages of 1 to 2. After that...no one teaches you how to walk. No one stood beside me this morning teaching me to put my right foot after my left foot and so forth. What age did I learn to read and write at? Ehhh I'd say at about age 5 or 6. And yet...even though I learned how to read and write at 6...I'm constantly learning brand new things about both. I grow as a writer and a thinker. It has much to do with passing days and passing experiences. As far as reading goes, there are going to be many books in the future that I dont understand at all. Its always a learning process. Just goes to show how some things we learn when we are younger stick with us...and other stick...and grow with us.

Some guy told me I looked like the prettiest christmas present behind the front desk at 24 hour the other day. Did I mention work is not half bad? =]

I have a few days off of work. I think its a very good thing. I will have time to catch up on some rest, homework, and family. Math class is still open...thank goodness. Two more days and counting before I can sign up. Keep those fingers crossed.

029. I'll ring his neck.

Just kidding. I dont do that. Its unkind...un"God"ly if you will. Dont think for one second that I dont think about it though.

I'm talking about Sid next door. His real name isnt Sid but for his protection I'll use that kid's name from toy story, you know...Sid that evil little boy who blew up toys and ate them and was all creepy. Thats..who my neighbor is. He doorbell ditched me tonight. Cutie....akdsoafsdjai. =]

Heyy there are still openings in math class. Just about 5 more days to go. Tomorrow I'm sure wil bring that number to...ohhh less openings, but I am optimistic. I have 4 back up plans just incase. Not all of them are as good as plan A but I suppose thats with all plan b, c, d, etc. Kait and darcie are going to register for me on friday because..go figure...my time to sign up is 130 aaand I start work at 2. Cool story DVC. Love you.

I work tomorrow til closing...then I have tuesday and wednesday off to find time to do some homework extra credit and to clean my room. How ironic that I clean all day at 24 hour and my room turns to a disaster area. Caution..wow...hey girl hey.

Thanksgiving break was very nice. I made money, relaxed, and slept a ton. I have this vision of a def jam I am going to write quite soon when I get enough time to do so.

I'm reading John Steinbeck's "The log from the sea of cortez". I've read almost every book ever written by Steinbeck except this one. Its starting out pretty good. He said this and I'm pretty sure it's the most insightful piece of writing ive read in quite a while. "The design of a book is the pattern of a reality controlled and shaped by the mind of the writer. This is completely understood about poetry or fiction, but it is too seldom realized about books of fact. And yet the impulse which drives a man to write poetry will send another man into the tide pools and force him to try and report what he finds there." =]


Lastly...I watched the outsiders this weekend with Tayy. Its my favorite book of all time and and taylor knows this so she got the movie for us to see and its half as good but thats besides the point. I love this story line mainly because it always brings me back to this state of mind I was in while first reading it. That "Wow that line is so good" or "I'm going to use that somewhere" kind of thoughts. Each and every time I read it or watch it...I remember and learn something new. It seems to coincide with my life quite well no matter what is going on. Read this...and you'll understand why. It will mean something to you too no matter if its a different cenario or situation in your life. Ehhhh I sound like a critic or a pushy sales person trying to win you over with this book but I'm not. Its already sold itself.

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower,
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief.
So dawn goes down to day,
Nothing gold can stay
























I got my iPod back. Halla. Halla. Halla. Halla. Halla. Halla. Halla.

028. Playlists come on saturdays as well.

A day late for it but, you shouldnt mind.

I got called into work today. I didnt go. They told me I was already on the schedule...I wasnt. I know I wasnt because I checked for like the 50th time when I closed by myself last night. And my boss promised I could have saturday off. Ive already worked over 30 hours this week and...I told them in the beginning the max I could do was 25. They are triiiippen if they think they can wrangle me in for 40+. I have a life other than 24 hour fitness...its called school..and breaaathing. Other than that...I love it there. Haahaha.




1. You give me something - James Morrison.
2. With you - Janet Jackson.
3. Better with you - Five Times August.
4. 7 Days - Craig David.
5. Make me whole - Kyla.
6. So Close - Jon McLaughlin.
7. PMW - Lil Wayne.
8. Replacement Girl - Drake.
9. Sky is falling - Nujabes







This is the only song that matters at the moment. ^^






And this one just makes me want to fall in love again...kind of. ^^


=] Live Beautifully. I'll come up with something insightful soon. My brain has been fried since the start of work. I need some calm words. Suggestions?

027. Just a spoonful of peanut butter helps the hiccups..go away...in the most deliiightful way.

I'm the new age mary poppins.

Next time you get the hiccups try a spoonful of peanut butter. Youre very welcome. No need to thank me. If you ever see a young girl named mallory..thank her.

Thanksgiving was amazing. Family gatherings are always a blast. There isnt much to say about it except that the food was great, the people were great, and the atmosphere was great!





Mom and tayy are so hungry...look at their faces...








The carving begins...in 2 places.








Daaad and Auntie Anne.








The two grampas =]








Look at that determination...







Good convo.








Not even half of the table...








Chauncey loves his football...











kait takes good candids.













Just.in loved my sidekick...soike.

















Lucy wanted turkey.
















=]













Best picture of the day.
















Off to work for eight hours. It should be fairly easy. If I find more pictures I will put them up later. =]

026. Work it, work it, work it. Awesome.

Back to work for meee. I haven't worked 8 hour days in quite some time...since summer. And even in summer I was in a pool teaching swimming lessons for 8 hours so...it was quite different. I love my new job though. 24 hour fitness is the place for me. Lets name awesome reasons shall we?

1. I get to wear sweats to work.
2. Hours are the most flexible things on the planet.
3. It's not that hard.
4. I get a free membership to 24 hour.
5. I get to wear sweats to work.

Hmmm...awesome? Okay yes.

Thanksgiving is also awesome. I get the day offff. I'm super excited. I shouldve put that as a reason to love my job. Haha...I was supposed to work but they decided to give me it off which means I can hang with the family.


-Kaitlynn is awesome because she talks a lot for me when I'm home. Haha you'd think it'd be the other way around but if I need something or there is a problem kaitlynn just stands right up for me. I totally forgot shes good at doing that because my parents like her more. Haha...no but really.

-Taylor is awesome because she calls me frogthroat. I thought it was funny. Oh and she sends me IMs at all hours of the night when shes right in the next room just to keep me up.

-Dani is awesome because we are lovers and frieeends and youre jealous because shes good looking..really she is.

-Darcie is awesome because she helped me find pants yesterday and she doesnt like dressing rooms.

-Cassie is awesome because shes the most genuine friend I know. Amazing is more the word I should use. She just brought me to tears from happiness.

-Audrey is awesome because shes MW. Oh...and shes from the hood apparently hahaha. sorrry.

-Jenny is awesome because she emails me every single day just to catch up.

-Kelly is awesome because she got my ipod back. Wow..saviorrr.


This is just a silly post. I have school now until about 5. Ohhh what a long day. I might stop into work for a bit if I have the time because its our thanksgiving feast todayyy. Oh dang...thats another reason.


Awesome. =]

025. Oh the irony.

I just got electrocuted. No really...I did.

I was trying to plug my phone charger in and zappp...my fingers are now numb and my heart beat is running at a much faster pace than before. Maybe I'm over reacting. I doubt it though...it was quite a shock...eyy? Okay, okay...but there in lies irony with what just happened.

Main Entry: elec·tro·cute
Pronunciation: i-ˈlek-trə-kyüt
Function: transitive verb

1 : to execute (a criminal) by electricity
2 : to kill by electric shock

I suppose it would happen just as I poured my heart and soul out to another. This doesnt happen often. People who are close with me know this. I laughed after the whole shock thing happened. It would make sense that a vibrant burst of energy run through my body after my mind and heart had just been drained. Oh the world and how it works in many ways one cannot describe.

Why am I awake at 2:30? Why, why, why? I guess a writer cannot explain why he or she writes things at abnormal hours. Its almost like a musician...writing songs in the middle of the night because their rhyming words will not be as dramatic in the morning. Or the basketball star who wakes up at 4 in the morning because he cannot lay in bed another minute without a free throw. Everyone has moments where things hit them and they must follow them. Inspiration can come at any time. I suppose my time right now is 2:30. Bed will follow shortly...and I wont regret any of it.

Days are passing and I am an observer. The world, as fast paced as it is, can slow down if one wishes. Breathe. Not just breathe but...listen to yourself breathe. Listen to yourself think if it will not get you into trouble. By this I mean I have a first hand account of myself thinking too much because I speak so little; leaving me to my words inside. Maybe it's how all writers feel. Words on paper are thoughts through the brain. I just had a very nice phone conversation. I talked...they listened. I didnt have to talk...but I did. Once I started I couldn't stop and by the time I did I needed 10 quick breaths because I forgot to do that while wearing my heart on my sleeve for just a moment. I quickly tucked it back in and then thanked God for not being much of a talker...no wonder those people are high strung...they never breathe. It all makes sense now. Haha...no no...but I am thankful for the conversation I was just able to have.

I now have learned that the best people in life always have a backpack full of actions. These people not only say things...but do them. Words only can mean so much. Think of a hand...if you did not know what a hand was at all...how would you describe it to someone? Would that be enough? Maybe...quite possibly...even probably. Yet...if someone were to hold a hand it would stimulate the mind and being able to visualize something that is in front of you is completely better than a story book full of words like "skin" "fingers" "thumbs". Maybe its 2:30 and I'm not making any sense but maybe...you know what I'm talking about.

As thanksgiving comes up...I'm thankful for many people. I could name many...but then I'd forget someone and since my blog is oh so real...someone would get hurt and I'm not really down for hurting people. You know who you are. You know if you are in my life and you know why you are in my life. The more days pass the more I make my mind erase what has broken me down. I only can shoot for positivity. No one can create that but myself. I create my days. I create my beautiful days with my beautiful people. Everyday is a test. God gives me little tests each and every day. Those tests build character. My character is very important to me. I am given tasks in my everyday life that God is sure I can handle. Even if I am full of doubt...he is behind me coaxing me through it. When I finish...I have proved myself wrong...and right. Thats one heck of a feeling. Being true to ones self is even more rewarding. My friend whom I spoke with tonight told me that its not enough to pick and choose who to be a good person to. If one thinks that he or she can run around pointing fingers and claiming to be a good person with only a handful...and then ruining the rest...they are not good at all. I feel as though that makes much sense and might even mean they are a worse person for doing that then...being a horrible person to everyone. At least consistency is in the picture then. Be kind to each and every person you meet...for they are fighting a battle to which you know nothing about. I believe in all until they give me a reason not to. And well...tonight I've secured a reason not to for a certain person. Life moves...and I wish to move with it.

I wrote this following statement in my english class last week. Our teacher told us to write something insightful. He was tired of us having nothing to say about the book we were reading and he wanted to see what our minds were filled with. Two sentences about anything in the world. I wrote this in my last blog but I kind of wish to share it again. I am proud of what I wrote and I feel as though it can be related to what I'm feeling:

"Know your worth. And once you find it...do not compromise it for any person. When you feel as though you have that under control...don't even compromise it for yourself."


I will sleep now. Knowing tomorrow is a brand new day. With my left arm half numb from the electrocution I've learned a lot tonight. Every once in a while shocks happen. You must be one with them because...they are stronger than you at that very moment. They tingle and make your heart beat fast. They anger you in ways you wish to control and cant very well do so. They fade away slowly and leave their mark. It's a reminder that everyone will go through it...get through it...and see another day.

I do apologize for this painfully long and somewhat pointless ramble. My mind is at ease now. Yours can be too with a lovely picture. I know...they are better than words. =] Enjoi.

024. No one is having three day school weeks. ....

So class just didnt happen for me this morning. It should have. I mean...it reaaaally should have. And then I realized that history class isnt as much of a blast as everyone makes it out to be. Wait...no one makes it out to be that sooo I went with the majority and stayed in bed. Its where I'm at currently. Good for me?

Its friday and kaitlynn comes home today. She is here for a whole week. Now...this is going to sound rediculous but I had no idea she was here for a week. Allll week shes been asking me clothes she should bring home and in my head I'm totally thinking "kait...its the weekend...bring a shirt or two and jeans..done." buut I wont say that to kait so I keep my mouth shut and she keeps saying weird things about my mom talking about the weather and how it might change. Again I become confused because the weather is not supposed to change dramatically between saturday and sunday. I still go along with this whole thing. Last night around 9 cassie IMs me and says something like..."are you excited for kait to be home for a whole week?" Uhh...yes? Yes...yes..hahahahahaha. I didnt tell her that I just forgot or that I had no clue about it. I just played it off. And now both of them will read this and laugh because in my head these days...real days dont have numbers and days of the week dont have names. That is why thanksgiving seems so distant from me at this point. I'm always go go go and now with this job its double time. Ha...kait...I am excited for your week visit. Believe me.

Taylor had me practicing yoga yesterday. I'm not quiiite sure I'm good at it. Although I dont give up on the first try. I remember doing it for major religions class in high school and loving it...and being good at it. And now I have no softball which means no flexibility. As in shape as I am...its totally different playing a sport. Sooo I think I need this little yoga thing to jump start my flexibility again. And it makes me feel all peaceful and gives off some good vibes and hey...who doesnt enjoy good vibes?

My sidekick is broken. I say that every time I write but this time it really is. The buttons dont work, people are getting my good morning texts at like 9 PM, its freaking ouuut and not deleting anything. I'm going to call the insurance people and make them send me a new one. This is going to be the third kick Ive had in less than a year. And whats weird is I have no scratches or broken pieces or anything on it. It should be running smooth. So I do apologize if youre getting late texts...no texts...orrrr getting upset because I randomly sign off the kick. Not my fault...blame SK3.

Songs are beautiful. And dirty life makes beautiful music. Its quite true. No one wants to hear about songs unless its about something that went wrong, or is currently wrong, or love thats hard, or love thats beautiful (and in that case love is often dirty therefore making it legit in my theory), or thug life, or how sex is great, or how much gold and chains and money one has. Its all dirty. Its tainted aaaand thats what kind of music people like. I can dig it. I listen to mainly beats anyway unless someone puts on something with more depth than a kiddie pool. Lyrics can range from amazing to lifeless. Beats stay making what kind of reaction ones going to get from the song. Tuuurrrrn it up in the car...or way way wayyy down. Oh...has anyone seen my iPod? Its apparently never ever going to get back into the hands of its rightful owner. How sad. That thing was...is my life. Everywhere I went some sort of song was playing in my head through those little speakers. And now I've brought back cds in my car and I'm two steps away from bringing out the sony walkman so I can hit that little "no skip" button while I'm walking to class. How cute right? Moral: That iPod shouuuld get back to me. Thanks.

1. Chillen in the key of E - Miri Ben-Ari.
2. Electropop - Jupiter Rising.
3. P.M.W. - Weezy F. Babyy.
4. Lesson Learned - Alicia Keys ft John Mayer.
5. Symphony of Brotherhood - Miri Ben-Ari.
6. Cant let go - Landon Pigg.
7. I know - Jay Z.
8. Breezin - The VeeGees.
9. Tell me what youre thinking - What you thought you knew.
10. More than anyone - Gavin Degraw.
11. Coffee Shop - Landon Pigg.














Know your worth. And once you find it...do not compromise it for any person. When you feel as though you have that under control...don't even compromise it for yourself. Live beautifully aaand have a good weekend.

Shoutout...superman.

023. I like loveee books.

Here's why:

"Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter — tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther... And one fine morning ——
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past."

Yeah...books say neat things like that so go read one. I smile each time I read this. Then I delve into a new book and hope to find the same powerful messages hidden underneath the black type and off white pages. Go read.


So I'm tired. Not like irritable and grouchy and wack tired. No, no...like...couldnt get out of bed tired but I had to and now I cant take a nap because there are too many things to do today tired. I suppose that does make me a little wack. Anyway...reasons for being tired incluuuude...happiness. I suppose it was all worth it. =]

Is it wrong if I'm feeling a little different based on past experiences? I shouldnt let those sway me in a direction that I have never in my life even thought of swaying. For me, entertaining this idea is becoming more and more comfortable. And all the while I'm angry about it because I never really wanted it in the first place. You can kind of skip over this part. It mainly has to do with some conflicts between my brain, my heart, and my body. Youre not reallllly physically a part of those persayyy so I do apologize. This scares me. In a good way. Then in a bad way. Then in a comfortable kind of way.

Audrey just told me im "one of those cool girls". I asked her what that meant and she said ohh you know...those cool girls. Hmm...thats a good thing I'm sure because everyone in society strives to be cool. And I suppose if I have achieved it without really trying then that's an even bigger bonus. Kudos Ashley. One persons opinion or everyones opinion...it all doesnt matter much to me haha.

My dad sent me a text on the way home from school this morning. "ay im just chillin wanna grab lunch?" Hm..tiiiight dad. Tight.

lmao....i love him.




I'm out. Too much to do today and very little time. I need to pass this ocean test. I need to take a nap. I need to eat and go pick up those books for moms and apply to schools and get my sidekick checked. Ugh...that just sounded like my sidekick has a doctor or something...like I really wouuuld take it super serious. And then I think about it and its totally that serious. Wow. Who wants to buy a sidekick from me? If youre not really ready for a child...I wouldnt suggest hittin me up for it.

Just becaaaause:

022. No school is quite a fun time.

Current feelings on life:



Dear Journal,
My life is currently like a popular tv show: episodes are days & weeks are seasons. I just want my watchers to know: my words, my emotions, my actions will hopefully touch, educate, and inspire oneself for the better. Just remember, like any show, there are boring moments, unrealistic plots, and even overly dramatic climaxes, but your faith in me, if not my show, will continue to help me in my success. Hopefully our trade offs will continue to bennefit eachother. I'm starting to cave and believe that kids who smile and laugh are absolutely endearing. Children are cute, and contrary to the rest of the world, I think babies are even cute at times. My ways are changing...sue me. I was told I looked young; I got bangs and fell short of my aspiration to be an individual. Despite that small set back in my trudging...I believe my hair doesnt make that big of an impact on who I am choosing to become. I have an ambition. Hey Dad, can be a writer and in the Peace Corps? I asked him that a year ago, a month ago, a week ago. I only got a yes to the writer part. Peace Corps can only be in my heart. Color symbolizes happiness and life, neon colors especially. Except, who has ever seen lime grass and aquamarine skies? If that happened, I would feel as if I stepped into a world of Lisa Frank. I might get freaked out...I might not. I do know that then people would pickett the colors of the world because it seems that society likes to pickett and protest every little change or bump that the world goes through. Move with the world...not against it. I'd like to meet a homeless man and feed him again much like my old friend Charles. If you would like to know about my old friend Charles...you can ask me...or go ask him. He lives in the Tenderloin. I want to move to Canada or Italy and speak Italian all day long. Goals in life are silly, but my goal is to survive this natural disaster that is coming our way. Please dont make a stupid pun about how I'm a natural disaster because thats even more silly than the goal itself. I cant help it if I'd rather survive the cyclone that is heading the United States' way than move my body like one. These feelings on life will change next week so dont take them too seriously. Or maybe you should. Or maybe...I should.
Love,
Ashley.

021. Pickles are not for everyone.

But...I enjoy those things. I snatched one before I headed out this weekend. Darcie's fridge always seems to be full of those and I'm not sure if her dad appretiated that I took it buuut he did hand me five dollars for the bridge so hey...BFF.

This weekend was exactly what I needed. I think I will just list things that I learned. It's always the outcome that seems to grab people's attention anyway.

1. Bridge toll workers text instead of taking your toll fare. Hey...I would do it too so I aint even mad. Go on girl...toll worker..lady.

2. Kaitlynn gives the best hellos. Almost like...this is exactly where I need to be.

3. I make good youtube videos. Some are a little boring but I dont feel like I should be blamed for that. Homegirl cant alllways make you laugh okay? =]

4. Darcie told me that she'd introduce me as: This is Ashley. Shes an okay writer and rhyme sayer if you like that "I just cried from emotion this is amazing" type of thang. Oh...dont worry shes BFF.

5. Street bikes that arent even street legal are not called street bikes. And no one is rolling that "mini bike" through the living room...like...no one.

6. Someone who means a lot to me drives from belmont...to rohnert park...back to belmont...back to rohnert park...just to hang again..in the same day...within about 7 hours. Thats friendship.

7. I have good friends. No..great friends.

8. I have come to the realization that my iPod has been on my mind more than what I thought was on my mind. Good for me.

9. I can spell hallucinate backwards in 30 seconds with another obsticle in my way. Figure that out.

10. Cassie gives amazing advice. Theres points where my heart beats to the rhythm of what shes saying. Its that powerful.

11. "With You" is the anthem for the month...or year. I want to play that for someone.

12. I wanted someone to hit me that didnt end up doing it but...maybe they will soon.

13. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.


I know this blog wont make much sense...unless you were there. But maybe you've had a weekend such as mine. Where you've been with good people...who make you feel good things and give off good vibes. If that's happened, you can relate. I feel lucky to be part of something so great. I surround myself with true people. Slowly but surely I'm weeding out those that I find to be untrue and it definately makes me grow with each and every obsticle I've had to overcome. People will come and go, unlucky things shall occur, and I wont always be in this high mood of happiness and thoughtfulness. However, I will always have a core group of people who will show me that they enjoy who I am for who I am...and treat me with respect. I will have lucky moments that make me feel blessed for things that I have. I will be happy when all of those things happen. Out of the bad...come the good. It is all in what one makes of it. Looking and living in the present has much to do with it. With this reflection of the past I will live in today. Knowing that I should and very well could carry these feelings towards the future. It's a cycle that I am constantly trying to master.




It is a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.

Yeaahhh sappyness is for trees but as you already know...I'm soo down with trees man so..let it be. =]

Keep on creating beautiful days.

020. How many schools can Ashley head to in one day?

Happy Friday everyone.
The answer to my title is 4. DVC, Moreau, St. Felicitas, aaand Sonoma State. A busy girl I have become. I need to pack. I miss my dad. I'm super excited that I killed that cold I felt coming. Airborne is my savior for now.
So as it turned out, I didnt have class at all today. I ended up having an english conference with my teacher that lasted only about 2 minutes. It blew driving out to pleasant hill for a 2 minute thing but it had to get done. At about 815 I got a text from tayy saying she forgot some stuff at home and needed me to drop it off at moreau. Sooo I went to hayward and dropped it off to her. I hadn't been into moreau since the remodeling. It looks beautiful. They did a good job. I suppose all that money my parents forked out really did help...after I'm long gone. I left moreau and got a phone call from my mom right after. She needed some help with a big luncheon she was putting on for the kids at her school. Sooo I headed to san leandro to help with that one. It was fun and my mom fed me some lunch after I helped. On the way back from that I got a phone call from 24 hour. They need me to come in and fill out the background check stuff. Its not a huge deal...except I'm supposed to be leaving for sonoma soon. I guess I'll go do the background stuff and then drive out. I'm excited to spend the weekend with kait and just relax for a few days.
Some little kindergartener told me I was pretty today. Its kind of neat how a little something like that can make your day. I said thanks and she ran off. Deep down inside I wanted to give her a hug. That might have been weird since I didnt know her personally...maybe she would have ran off. Maybe she would have been happy for a hug. A high five could have done the trick. Whaaatevs. She smiled when I said thanks so thats all she needed. Oh...and I got in trouble with my mom today because this little girl was checking out a book that was about beagle dogs and I asked her if she had one of those. She said no. I told her that I'd talk to her mom for her. The girl laughed because she knew I was joking...i think. My mom kind of laughed but then flipped out and told me that I cant just tell someone that. Why not? I would talk to that mom if I ever really did see her so it wasnt as if I was lying persayyy.
One of the ladies at the luncheon today didnt know I was my moms child. She said "your mom is wayyy too young to have a daughter in college..how old are you?" I said 19 almost 20 and she like flipped. She told me about how her daughter is only in 2nd grade and they always fight but she was happy to see me and my mom cause it was almost like we were friends. I almost choked on my food. I never had heard that one in my life. Friends? Then I thought about it and I hadn't even realized that me and my mom are on very good terms lately. No fights...no bitter feelings...just staying civil which I suppose to outsiders looking in looks much like a friendship. I agree...my mom is amazing. She does a lot. I told the lady that she has many many many more years of fighting with her daughter...but eventually her daughter is going to come up to her and thank her...or smile...or be civil. She told me I am good with words. Again I said thanks...not really contimplating a hug this time since that would obviously be out of line.


The same songs play on repeat these days...but I like that.

1. With You - Chris Brown.
2. Hundred - The Fray.
3. Man on the side - John Mayer.

019. Ashley is good at interviews.

Short little thing to sayyyyy.....the interview went very well today with 24 hour fitness. I made them laugh and I'm pretty sure they liked me. I will find out tomorrow. I could really use this job so keep your fingers crossed. =]

This week is almost over. I'm excited about that as well. I might have work this weekend if I do end up getting the job. I was supposed to head up to kaits...and I will..just after work or before work or something like that.


Oh...and Chris Brown happens to be genius. His CD is money.





As cheesy as this one is...it'd be pretty cool to play for someone.


Keep on creating beautiful days.

018. Sundays can be fundays. Mondays are like rain.

Beginning of the week. This one should go by rather quick I'm hoping. I believe I'm taking friday off. I have some things I need to take care of...aaand...then I'll self proclaim a 4 day weekend instead of just three.

I have an interview with 24 hour fitness on wednesday. Hopefully that works out. I get good vibes from that place. And not just because of all the pretty people and sculpted bodies in there. Okay I lied, it probably is. Nevertheless I think it'd be a dope place to work. And I could definately use the pay check from there.

Cause it hellllla doesn't get dark at 4:30 now...? Thanks daylight savings time for tricking my brain into bed time at 7:00 PM. I'm crashing out and waking up about 10 times before I find a decent hour to fall asleep at that doesnt give me a 15 hour rest period possibly tricking people that I'm in a coma. Dang sun...make up your mind. Or the clocks. Yeahh..blame the clocks. Or the government...yeahhh nix the clocks...the government is who I need to talk to.

I'm taking a trip tomorrow. Dont ask where. I probably wont tell you. The only ones who need to know are me, darcie, aaand...- - - - - - - - - - - - -. Now, you figure out someone with a first name like that...and I'll glaaadly fess up to where I'm headed.

Thats all for tonight. I'm sleepy and its not even 10. I think I'll mess around on the kick for a bit and theeeen...kick back to the back of my eyelids. Oh yes.

Aaand...for your monday:








Hes mos def initely an icon. =]

017. Cars are just objects...people are not.

So...I was in a car accident yesterday. And as it seems...everyone else had quite the awful saturday along with me. It wasnt supposed to turn out that way. But it is quite humorous how days seem to work out from bad to good or good to bad. I had just paid my sidekick bill and I was backing out of a stall. It was quite a small parking lot. There was a man behind me waiting for my spot. I backed out completely...looked down to change my car from reverse to drive...when I heard kaitlynn scream. I then looked to my left and sure enough a big black SUV was backing out at full speed no breaks. I leaned in to the right and covered my face. Two seconds later the SUV's tail end came into my drivers side door blowing out the window onto me. Needless to say it was scary...and hurt. Thank God for kaitlynn. I was bleeding..and..angry. I said many many words that I later asked Jesus' forgiveness for hahaha. Kait handled everything like a champ. She talked to the guy. He admitted it was all his fault and he didnt even look he just gassed it because he was in a hurry. Ehhhh he's lame. My conclusion is...a car is just an object..but I am not. Neither is kaitlynn. So thank the Lord we are fine despite a few cuts I got from the glass. I am currently without a car...or a car window...buuuut...ill find something soon!










After the crash I needed something. Aaaaand Darcie did the trick. We ate tacos and my dad invited the block over so we ate in good company and that is always fun. We then went to the park...pictures will be up later. We lastly surprised dani. I hadn't seen her in 3 weeks. Shes...the best. A good ending to a bad start.

And words of wisdom to take in for a beautiful Sunday...



The only true paradise...is paradise lost.
Ones real life is so often the life that one does not lead.
Pain is inevitable...suffering is optional.
Its innocence when it charms us...ignorance when it doesnt.
Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not.
Its a characteristic of wisdom...not to do desperate things.
A single day is enough to make us a little larger
In the depth of winter i finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.

016. I like good music.

1. Astair - Matt Costa.
2. Acceptance and the bomb - The spill canvas.
3. Tainted Love - Slum Village.
4. Blue Magic - Jay Z.
5. Sunshine - Atmopshere.
6. Street Talkin' - Slick Rick.
7. 7 Days Remix - Craig David ft Mos Def.
8. Travelin Man - Mos Def & DJ Honda.

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9. Piece of me - Britney Spears

(Yesss...laugh...I threw it up one time for the little people. Give it up... shes dissin herself...and shes not really singing...more like..scattin a bit. I can digg it.)


Happy Friday. Make it beautiful. =]

015. I think bangs are the new style.

So I hopped on the bandwagon and got some myself. I am super happpy with how they turned out. I'll post more pictures of them soon. Buuut here they are and they are mine and I love them.




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014. The first of the month is upon us.

So I haven't written a blog right when I've woken up...ever. And yet this morning seemed to grab me enough for me to turn on my computer and come right here to write about how I was feeling. It was one of those mornings that I woke right up...and I was smiling. As its been some time as I've had this feeling, I kind of wanted to share it. You know, we've all had those mornings that we've woken up and had a feeling that something amazing was about to happen. That something not so great was about to turn completely around and get so much better. Its kind of like my eyelids opened to see a brighter room. The song "perfect day" by hoku played in my head. Then I realized how rediculous that song actually is and I turned on this amazing song I have come across by Matt Costa called Astair. I would advise everyone to please check that out if you haven't already. I need to get ready for the day...it's calling me. However, my conclusion is that it's going to be a crackin' month. Watch out world...Ashley is baaack. =]