So clever and true. Enjoy!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
238. Sunday Inspiration.
"I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
-Maya Angelou
-Maya Angelou
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
237. Too long.
Happiness is...
- Being lovesick.
- One more week of classes.
- One more quarter of college.
- Full Throttles.
- Unexpected texts.
- First Christmas movie of the season.
- Old pictures.
- Glee.
- Tea.
- Things for free.
- Not bumblebees.
- Bright orange and yellow trees.
- The cool winter breeze.
- New shirts for 10 bucks.
- New jobs.
- Fighting myself for sleep.
- Red sweater.
- Family dynamics.
- People watching.
- Words with friends- haaay iphone.
- Home cooked meals.
- Emails.
- Vegetables.
- Tree lightings.
- Feel good movies.
- Compliments and smiles from random folk.
- Seeing both my sisters for an entire week.
- Love...in all its forms.
Yes..sappy happy post. I become a tree in winter. Maybe the cold has me warm and fuzzy inside. Ironic.
Things not so happy this week:
- Finals.
- Final projects.
- No food in the house.
- The economy.
Bad news = I had to write bad news. Good news = there is more happy than bad. With that...I call it a win.
Enjoy the next few months. Good luck with finals. I'll try and come on here more. I lag. =]
Peace & Blessings
- Being lovesick.
- One more week of classes.
- One more quarter of college.
- Full Throttles.
- Unexpected texts.
- First Christmas movie of the season.
- Old pictures.
- Glee.
- Tea.
- Things for free.
- Not bumblebees.
- Bright orange and yellow trees.
- The cool winter breeze.
- New shirts for 10 bucks.
- New jobs.
- Fighting myself for sleep.
- Red sweater.
- Family dynamics.
- People watching.
- Words with friends- haaay iphone.
- Home cooked meals.
- Emails.
- Vegetables.
- Tree lightings.
- Feel good movies.
- Compliments and smiles from random folk.
- Seeing both my sisters for an entire week.
- Love...in all its forms.
Yes..sappy happy post. I become a tree in winter. Maybe the cold has me warm and fuzzy inside. Ironic.
Things not so happy this week:
- Finals.
- Final projects.
- No food in the house.
- The economy.
Bad news = I had to write bad news. Good news = there is more happy than bad. With that...I call it a win.
Enjoy the next few months. Good luck with finals. I'll try and come on here more. I lag. =]
Peace & Blessings
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
236. The neverending X
The never ending X has two very straight lines
and sometimes...they seem to me very crooked.
The never ending X and I've bet you already guessed
has two different sides.
Right side is gentle, hurt and weeping
and that damn X has every heavy heart keeping
watch for the watch that tells the time of self pity.
Left side is angry, hurtful and mean
and I mean bitter- for the better of the X's life
came out of hardship, distraught, and strife.
The never ending X is a pain in my side
with its never ending lines I'll take infinity in strides
because I'm not sure if this X can be cured.
You see, the X who plays the fool will get caught quick
unless the spell you're under has you closer than a BIC
good shave poor grave for you've dug a deep one and I suppose I'll call you brave.
The never ending X is a monster of a letter.
The precious lines continue on and the game keeps getting better.
Feeling bad for the growth is all part of the plan
until birthday presents, christmas cards, and flowers overwhelm the fan-
because that stuff just hit it
and now I continue on as though I can't quit it.
The never ending X has never gone away
and it's now been almost three hundred and sixty five days.
Friend or foe it's sunk so low I can't grow and I can't know
what comes next...
X is first best with its
never ending lines
perfect memory times
keeping the most important person blind.
I am not blind clever X and I will catch you.
For you and I haven't had the chance for me to say everything I plan to.
Never ending X you keep on growing
and I keep on knowing that this...
that this...
that you...
can never disappear.
and sometimes...they seem to me very crooked.
The never ending X and I've bet you already guessed
has two different sides.
Right side is gentle, hurt and weeping
and that damn X has every heavy heart keeping
watch for the watch that tells the time of self pity.
Left side is angry, hurtful and mean
and I mean bitter- for the better of the X's life
came out of hardship, distraught, and strife.
The never ending X is a pain in my side
with its never ending lines I'll take infinity in strides
because I'm not sure if this X can be cured.
You see, the X who plays the fool will get caught quick
unless the spell you're under has you closer than a BIC
good shave poor grave for you've dug a deep one and I suppose I'll call you brave.
The never ending X is a monster of a letter.
The precious lines continue on and the game keeps getting better.
Feeling bad for the growth is all part of the plan
until birthday presents, christmas cards, and flowers overwhelm the fan-
because that stuff just hit it
and now I continue on as though I can't quit it.
The never ending X has never gone away
and it's now been almost three hundred and sixty five days.
Friend or foe it's sunk so low I can't grow and I can't know
what comes next...
X is first best with its
never ending lines
perfect memory times
keeping the most important person blind.
I am not blind clever X and I will catch you.
For you and I haven't had the chance for me to say everything I plan to.
Never ending X you keep on growing
and I keep on knowing that this...
that this...
that you...
can never disappear.
Friday, November 13, 2009
235. Autotune.
This is the most unique video I've seen in a while. Funny how autotune makes people sound like stars. Makes you reconsider what you're doing still in school when you could easily have a hit record by singing into an autotune microphone. Haha, regardless...I hope you enjoy this as well as your weekend. =]
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
234. Miles Apart
This is a song about being apart from anyone you care deeply about. Just a reiteration about the love that is held between those very miles...making it seem not very far away at all! Ironic that this video was conducted miles apart..one guy on the west side and one guy on the east side. Eebsofresh has become on of my favorite artists lately (the singer). Hope you enjoy this as much as I did. As he put it....ya this video is short...but so is life...enjoy it for what it is...not what it isn't. =]
Sunday, November 1, 2009
233. The Figure a Poem Makes
No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise for the writer, no surprise for the reader. For me the initial delight is in the surprise of remembering something I didn't know I knew. I am in a place, in a situation, as if I had materialized from cloud or risen out of the ground. There is a glad recognition of the long lost and the rest follows. Step by step the wonder of unexpected supply keeps growing. The impressions most useful to my purpose seem always those I was unaware of and so made no note of at the time when taken, and the conclusion is come to that like giants we are always hurling experience ahead of us to pave the future with against the day when we may Want to strike a line of purpose across it for somewhere. The line will have the more charm for not being mechanically straight. We enjoy the straight crookedness of a good walking stick. Modern instruments of precision are being used to make things crooked as if by eye and hand in the old days.
I tell how there may be a better wildness of logic than of inconsequence. But the logic is backward, in retrospect, after the act. It must be more felt than seen ahead like prophecy. It must be a revelation, or a series of revelations, as much for the poet as for the reader. For it to be that there must have been the greatest freedom of the material to move about in it and to establish relations in it regardless of time and space, previous relation, and everything but affinity. We prate of freedom. We call our schools free because we are not free to stay away from them till we are sixteen years of age. I have given up my democratic prejudices and now willingly set the lower classes free to be completely taken care of by the upper classes. Political freedom is nothing to me. I bestow it right and left. All I would keep for myself is the freedom of my material-the condition of body and mind now and then to summons aptly from the vast chaos of all I have lived through.
- Robert Frost
Oh Robert, you will always have a piece of my heart.
I tell how there may be a better wildness of logic than of inconsequence. But the logic is backward, in retrospect, after the act. It must be more felt than seen ahead like prophecy. It must be a revelation, or a series of revelations, as much for the poet as for the reader. For it to be that there must have been the greatest freedom of the material to move about in it and to establish relations in it regardless of time and space, previous relation, and everything but affinity. We prate of freedom. We call our schools free because we are not free to stay away from them till we are sixteen years of age. I have given up my democratic prejudices and now willingly set the lower classes free to be completely taken care of by the upper classes. Political freedom is nothing to me. I bestow it right and left. All I would keep for myself is the freedom of my material-the condition of body and mind now and then to summons aptly from the vast chaos of all I have lived through.
- Robert Frost
Oh Robert, you will always have a piece of my heart.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
232. Update happy.
Shalom!
Sorry there hasn't been an update in a while. Also sorry for updates with just youtube videos. It's kind of all I have time for lately. Between school and burned Kaitlynn things have been quite crazy here. Update? School is crazy and good all at the same time. Credential apps might be the death of me...and my wallet. Kaitlynn is alive and well minus burns. It's been nice being with her these past few weeks. It's God awful that it's under these circumstances but nevertheless I'm thankful for the time. Hopefully this will help your Tuesday!
Happiness is...
- iPhone apps.
- specifically "I am Tpain".
- school three days a week.
- people who bring pineapple cakes for kaitlynn.
- candy because people bring kaitlynn lots of it.
- glee.
- modern family.
- police women of broward county.
- top chef.
- so you think you can dance.
- mia michaels oh yes.
- juniper bringing me food on my school break.
- vaseline lotion for men.
- full throttles.
- cold weather.
- sweatshirts.
- pumpkin spice latte.
- disneyland in december.
- bringing kaitlynn masks from target.
- slippers to class.
- speeches from the Tlingit tribe.
- carpooling.
- Oprah.
- sleeping in.
- power points being online.
- iced coffee in the afternoon.
- seeing the sun when you wake up.
- cooper when he doesn't bark.
- learning new things about my iphone.
- wanting to escape and having it become a reality soon.
- everyday being one day closer to graduation.
- mexxis food for dinners.
- chipotle lime chips.
- longboards.
- cupcake earrings.
- drives home from long days.
- lights anywhere.
- organizing my room.
- swimming.
- talking to awesome people.
- bread.
- soup and bread.
- soup in bread...bowls.
- shorts with sweatshirts.
- this youtube....
aaaaand I'm done. Be thankful for what you have and who you have. Say thank you a little more often to whatever or whoever you believe in. It will be worth it...trust me.
Peace&Blessings.
Sorry there hasn't been an update in a while. Also sorry for updates with just youtube videos. It's kind of all I have time for lately. Between school and burned Kaitlynn things have been quite crazy here. Update? School is crazy and good all at the same time. Credential apps might be the death of me...and my wallet. Kaitlynn is alive and well minus burns. It's been nice being with her these past few weeks. It's God awful that it's under these circumstances but nevertheless I'm thankful for the time. Hopefully this will help your Tuesday!
Happiness is...
- iPhone apps.
- specifically "I am Tpain".
- school three days a week.
- people who bring pineapple cakes for kaitlynn.
- candy because people bring kaitlynn lots of it.
- glee.
- modern family.
- police women of broward county.
- top chef.
- so you think you can dance.
- mia michaels oh yes.
- juniper bringing me food on my school break.
- vaseline lotion for men.
- full throttles.
- cold weather.
- sweatshirts.
- pumpkin spice latte.
- disneyland in december.
- bringing kaitlynn masks from target.
- slippers to class.
- speeches from the Tlingit tribe.
- carpooling.
- Oprah.
- sleeping in.
- power points being online.
- iced coffee in the afternoon.
- seeing the sun when you wake up.
- cooper when he doesn't bark.
- learning new things about my iphone.
- wanting to escape and having it become a reality soon.
- everyday being one day closer to graduation.
- mexxis food for dinners.
- chipotle lime chips.
- longboards.
- cupcake earrings.
- drives home from long days.
- lights anywhere.
- organizing my room.
- swimming.
- talking to awesome people.
- bread.
- soup and bread.
- soup in bread...bowls.
- shorts with sweatshirts.
- this youtube....
aaaaand I'm done. Be thankful for what you have and who you have. Say thank you a little more often to whatever or whoever you believe in. It will be worth it...trust me.
Peace&Blessings.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
231. Get it Alice.
Amazing remix. I'm so grooving right about now. Oh and before it's too late...welcome Fall! First day of fall was today. Now we just need the weather to catch up because apparently it forgot.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
230. Unwrapping rapping.
So as you know I fully admit to loving YouTube. I go on it for just about everything and it amuses me for hours on end. I do have my select favorites that I check up on close to everyday. I love when collabos happen. These two are almost pushing it for the 3 and 4 spot of my favs. The top 2 are a secret. Here we have Kat Badar and Timothy De la Ghetto. Go check both of them out on their separate channels. Kat has this super amazing voice and Tim is hilarious and can actually spit pretty well. Maybe I should write something for him and send it in. And yes...I'm on a first name basis with them. Look at me giving nicknames like "Tim". Hope you enjoy!!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
229. Fall 09
With school starting up for most people I decided to do a little Fall 2009 blog. I like giving people a taste of what I'm into during each and every season. I change my mind a lot so if I do this season by season you might be able to keep up. This is in no way a fashion blog. This is primarily a place where I am telling you what I will be sporting...things that I love!
Shoes:
I love shoes. Anyone who knows me knows that I spend all the money I can on the newest and freshest pair of kicks. I may not be all that fashionable, but when it comes to my kicks I like to think I have a pretty fresh hand (or foot in this case) in the game. Here are my must haves for Fall 09.
These are the Nike Dunks Hi in nylon. I've outgrown a lot of my Nikes except for my air max 95's but when I saw these on a friend last winter I've been on a hunt ever since. I couldn't pull these off with anything but sweats. It's a shoe that is so comfy and so ready for winter. The nylon makes these shoes water resistant. Imagine sweats with the all black Nikes in the pouring rain. Look fresh even when its pouring. I like it.
These are Globe Motley in black denim. I'm not a huge skate shoe fan except for vans but these caught my eye and I picked them up in early summer for a decent price. I've only worn them once to get the feel because I'm waiting for fall to bust them out. My favorite part is the copper trim.
These are the Del Barco low Vans in olive green. Vans has completely stepped up their line of shoes for the Fall season. So many brands are now heading in the direction of the boat shoe and I for one completely digg it. These haven't come out yet but as soon as they do I am really going to consider picking up a pair.
Last but certainly not least we have the peacoat Vans. I was hesitant to even put this shoe out here because I am kind of selfish when it comes to my kicks. However I couldn't resist showing off my newest find for Fall. These have also not come out yet but I will definitely be finding them as soon as they do. It's like a jacket...for your feet!
Jackets & Hoodies:
I'm a huge fan of jackets and sweatshirts during fall and winter months. You can't go wrong with a comfy sweatshirt to help you get through a boring class. I don't have much of a style when it comes to these things...I'm more of a comfort girl.
This is my new zip up hoodie from tillys. They are pretty cheap and come in awesome colors. Juniper got a purple one and I picked up this pretty blue one! I will be getting more of these if they hold up nicely.
This rain jacket by Columbia has helped me through many a storm. I like it because it has a fleece lining inside and drawstrings everywhere to keep the jacket super tight. I wear it over everything during rain season.
Shirts and Longsleeves:
I lost my love for graphic tee's this summer. For some reason I only wore v-necks this summer. I think the comfort of a v-neck, the style, and the choices definitely made me a happy camper. They can be dressed up or down and I'm excited to wear them under jackets this Fall. Longsleeves I can't wait to pull out. Thermals are going to be a must for me this coming season.
Vneck forever. My favorite (cheap) v-necks?...Target!
Thermals with buttons are going to be my thing. Target for the win..again. =]
Pants:
I love jeans. Sweats and jeans are what I'm all about.
Bullhead skinny jeans are my favorite. They fit right and aren't too baggy for my liking. I'm not a huge fan of tight jeans, but I also can't stand baggy jeans. I've searched long and hard for the right jean and bullhead skinny seems to be the winner. They've got so many colors and its a good thing.
There ya have it! Hope you enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed creating it. =]
Shoes:
I love shoes. Anyone who knows me knows that I spend all the money I can on the newest and freshest pair of kicks. I may not be all that fashionable, but when it comes to my kicks I like to think I have a pretty fresh hand (or foot in this case) in the game. Here are my must haves for Fall 09.
These are the Nike Dunks Hi in nylon. I've outgrown a lot of my Nikes except for my air max 95's but when I saw these on a friend last winter I've been on a hunt ever since. I couldn't pull these off with anything but sweats. It's a shoe that is so comfy and so ready for winter. The nylon makes these shoes water resistant. Imagine sweats with the all black Nikes in the pouring rain. Look fresh even when its pouring. I like it.
These are Globe Motley in black denim. I'm not a huge skate shoe fan except for vans but these caught my eye and I picked them up in early summer for a decent price. I've only worn them once to get the feel because I'm waiting for fall to bust them out. My favorite part is the copper trim.
These are the Del Barco low Vans in olive green. Vans has completely stepped up their line of shoes for the Fall season. So many brands are now heading in the direction of the boat shoe and I for one completely digg it. These haven't come out yet but as soon as they do I am really going to consider picking up a pair.
Last but certainly not least we have the peacoat Vans. I was hesitant to even put this shoe out here because I am kind of selfish when it comes to my kicks. However I couldn't resist showing off my newest find for Fall. These have also not come out yet but I will definitely be finding them as soon as they do. It's like a jacket...for your feet!
Jackets & Hoodies:
I'm a huge fan of jackets and sweatshirts during fall and winter months. You can't go wrong with a comfy sweatshirt to help you get through a boring class. I don't have much of a style when it comes to these things...I'm more of a comfort girl.
This is my new zip up hoodie from tillys. They are pretty cheap and come in awesome colors. Juniper got a purple one and I picked up this pretty blue one! I will be getting more of these if they hold up nicely.
This rain jacket by Columbia has helped me through many a storm. I like it because it has a fleece lining inside and drawstrings everywhere to keep the jacket super tight. I wear it over everything during rain season.
Shirts and Longsleeves:
I lost my love for graphic tee's this summer. For some reason I only wore v-necks this summer. I think the comfort of a v-neck, the style, and the choices definitely made me a happy camper. They can be dressed up or down and I'm excited to wear them under jackets this Fall. Longsleeves I can't wait to pull out. Thermals are going to be a must for me this coming season.
Vneck forever. My favorite (cheap) v-necks?...Target!
Thermals with buttons are going to be my thing. Target for the win..again. =]
Pants:
I love jeans. Sweats and jeans are what I'm all about.
Bullhead skinny jeans are my favorite. They fit right and aren't too baggy for my liking. I'm not a huge fan of tight jeans, but I also can't stand baggy jeans. I've searched long and hard for the right jean and bullhead skinny seems to be the winner. They've got so many colors and its a good thing.
There ya have it! Hope you enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed creating it. =]
Monday, September 14, 2009
228. Lucky Miss D.
Happiness is..
- Videos such as the one above.
- Caesar chicken.
- Unexpected cash.
- Monday Night Football.
- Wool pea coat vans.
- My cupcake earrings.
- Juniper staying with me all weekend without fail.
- Lucy and her cute pug face.
- Skype sesh with Taylor.
- Dancing like no one's watching.
- Writing a really good story in your head.
- Pretending your in a movie sometimes. (try it if you haven't..it's fun).
- A nice shower.
- Old Spice deodorant.
- Zours.
- Nike sweats.
- My iphone 3GS.
- Grieves.
- Good blogs. The type that make you want to experience better days and be lively enough to write about them.
- Co-Co puffs and having Juniper share them with me in the morning.
- V-neck shirts.
- Finding thermals with buttons for winter.
- Being excited for Halloween to arrive.
- Candy corn on my table.
- Olive green jansports.
- Backpacks in general.
- New seasons of shows coming back on.
- Out of town family.
- Workout time.
- Unexpected rain.
- Grad school apps.
- Knowing I'll have a BA in June.
- Singing in the rain.
- Temperpedic beds.
- The VMAs minus Kanye.
- Jay Z and his new album.
- Pretzels.
Have a great week. Peace & Blessings.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
227. Inbox Hope.
May 18th, 2008 I received a letter in my inbox. It was long and detailed...with no stronger intention then the simple fact of saying hello. A small portion of the letter continues to uplift me each and every time I read it.
"I just wanted you to know that you are amazing. Every one else is thinking it, they would just feel weird saying it randomly. Trust me. The world thinks you are fantastic and we're all blessed that there are people like you around to make it that much better for us.
... So thanks. =]"
The purpose of me posting this is not for self recognition. I suppose it is more for inspiration. I do believe that there is at least one person for everyone that uplifts us more than we can possibly do ourselves. It's often hard to live in a world of competition and expectation. If every person received an email like I did last year...we would save it, glance at it on our bad days, and remember that at least one person believes we are making a difference through our own personal storm. Bottom line...try and be happy. I know that when I read over that line in my email I sure want to live up to the standard they feel I am personally accomplishing. Then I often take a step back and realize that by simply being me...I am doing exactly that. Rock on and live on. Make yourself proud...that's most important. I mean that.
Thanks friend...wherever you are. I suppose you're the inspiration to this post.
=]
"I just wanted you to know that you are amazing. Every one else is thinking it, they would just feel weird saying it randomly. Trust me. The world thinks you are fantastic and we're all blessed that there are people like you around to make it that much better for us.
... So thanks. =]"
The purpose of me posting this is not for self recognition. I suppose it is more for inspiration. I do believe that there is at least one person for everyone that uplifts us more than we can possibly do ourselves. It's often hard to live in a world of competition and expectation. If every person received an email like I did last year...we would save it, glance at it on our bad days, and remember that at least one person believes we are making a difference through our own personal storm. Bottom line...try and be happy. I know that when I read over that line in my email I sure want to live up to the standard they feel I am personally accomplishing. Then I often take a step back and realize that by simply being me...I am doing exactly that. Rock on and live on. Make yourself proud...that's most important. I mean that.
Thanks friend...wherever you are. I suppose you're the inspiration to this post.
=]
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
226. Michael.
Man if this would have been the type of stuff we did, I would have never stopped choir. Wait...did I say I was in choir? Haha, cats out of the bag. Enjoy!
Monday, August 31, 2009
225. Inspiration.
This is absolutely incredible. Take time to watch this if you can. I actually liked this song when it first came out by Kanye. Then everybody started covering it and it turned me off a little bit. The Fray has managed to turn this into a true piece of art and revamp the song completely for me. Kudos to them. Hope you get something strong out of it like I did. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
224. Surprised?
I'm back. It didn't take long and you probably already knew I would return. I thought I could move but I suppose this silly thing is a part of me now. Welcome back to me. Welcome back to you.
Happiness is...
- video chatting with taylor.
- eating queso with kaitlynn.
- juanitas.
- the smell of rain on pavement.
- so you think you can dance.
- mia michaels.
- mia michaels.
- mia michaels.
- sonic commercials.
- when autumn and halloween decor go on display in stores.
- getting fun mail sent to my house for me.
- christmas cookies.
- singing made up songs about my days.
- when taylor tells me she misses me.
- when kaitlynn tells me she misses me.
- the sound of a single acoustic guitar.
- rainy evenings with too much tivo to be had.
- soup in bread bowls.
- toasted bagels and cream cheese.
- people watching at the airport.
- strangers who smile at me.
- the start of a new season.
- eating outside at a restaurant.
- reading old journal entries and laughing at myself.
- being able to laugh at myself.
- yogurtland.
- being able to cook with no deadline.
- ice coffee.
- making ridiculous faces to jen over skype and making her laugh.
- finishing a book that makes me sigh.
- any sandwich.
- receiving a genuine compliment.
- knowing i am a senior in college.
- a good pair of sweats (or sweat shorts).
- cold days.
Can you tell I'm ready for fall? =]
Peace & Blessings.
Happiness is...
- video chatting with taylor.
- eating queso with kaitlynn.
- juanitas.
- the smell of rain on pavement.
- so you think you can dance.
- mia michaels.
- mia michaels.
- mia michaels.
- sonic commercials.
- when autumn and halloween decor go on display in stores.
- getting fun mail sent to my house for me.
- christmas cookies.
- singing made up songs about my days.
- when taylor tells me she misses me.
- when kaitlynn tells me she misses me.
- the sound of a single acoustic guitar.
- rainy evenings with too much tivo to be had.
- soup in bread bowls.
- toasted bagels and cream cheese.
- people watching at the airport.
- strangers who smile at me.
- the start of a new season.
- eating outside at a restaurant.
- reading old journal entries and laughing at myself.
- being able to laugh at myself.
- yogurtland.
- being able to cook with no deadline.
- ice coffee.
- making ridiculous faces to jen over skype and making her laugh.
- finishing a book that makes me sigh.
- any sandwich.
- receiving a genuine compliment.
- knowing i am a senior in college.
- a good pair of sweats (or sweat shorts).
- cold days.
Can you tell I'm ready for fall? =]
Peace & Blessings.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
223. Goodbye.
Dear blog,
I've decided to take my ramblings and move elsewhere. It's not you...it's me. I....I've found someone else. They just...get me. I hope you will understand and maybe someday we could even be friends. I just think that right now this space is needed. Take care...I wish you all the best.
Always real,
Ashley
Wanting to know who the "other blog" is? Welp...I suppose you should just copy and past this link and see where it takes ya.
http://girlwonderfool.tumblr.com/
I can't give TROAS up forever. Maybe just for now. I guess we shall see how this goes.
Peace and Blessings.
I've decided to take my ramblings and move elsewhere. It's not you...it's me. I....I've found someone else. They just...get me. I hope you will understand and maybe someday we could even be friends. I just think that right now this space is needed. Take care...I wish you all the best.
Always real,
Ashley
Wanting to know who the "other blog" is? Welp...I suppose you should just copy and past this link and see where it takes ya.
http://girlwonderfool.tumblr.com/
I can't give TROAS up forever. Maybe just for now. I guess we shall see how this goes.
Peace and Blessings.
Friday, June 12, 2009
222. Quick Update-
-School is officially out for summer.
-I'm officially a college senior.
-That is officially scary.
-It's a tad depressing that summer's here and there is no sign of the sun.
-I chopped off all my hair.
-Work starts Monday.
-Tonight I become a door monitor.
-Tomorrow I start my reading excursion for the summer.
-I think I want a twitter account.
-Here's the inspiration for that thought:
Haha, genius.
Peace&Blessings.
-I'm officially a college senior.
-That is officially scary.
-It's a tad depressing that summer's here and there is no sign of the sun.
-I chopped off all my hair.
-Work starts Monday.
-Tonight I become a door monitor.
-Tomorrow I start my reading excursion for the summer.
-I think I want a twitter account.
-Here's the inspiration for that thought:
Haha, genius.
Peace&Blessings.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
221. Pizzzzza.
I dislike pizza.
I enjoy music.
I suppose the pizza girl would be fun to meet.
What do you get what you combine all of these things?
A song which has no deeper meaning beyond the fact that the Jonas brothers fell in love with the pizza girl...and now they eat pizza everyday.
This rendition is much better than the original. Although the very first time those three curly headed boys sang that song it was in my head for days.
*Note to self: Write a catchy song with no more than 50 words that I will repeat over and over. Product = millions of dollars. Product #2: happy ashley.
Enjoy!
I enjoy music.
I suppose the pizza girl would be fun to meet.
What do you get what you combine all of these things?
A song which has no deeper meaning beyond the fact that the Jonas brothers fell in love with the pizza girl...and now they eat pizza everyday.
This rendition is much better than the original. Although the very first time those three curly headed boys sang that song it was in my head for days.
*Note to self: Write a catchy song with no more than 50 words that I will repeat over and over. Product = millions of dollars. Product #2: happy ashley.
Enjoy!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
220. Keep me awake.
1. Everyone is having finals. Everyone...except me. I tried convincing every single one of my professors to have finals this week that way we all get an extra two weeks of summer. They told me their jobs would then be on the chopping block. I was going to argue that the budget cut has already almost completely done that for them unintentionally. I kept my mouth shut. Yet...that's pretty true. Oh...and a bummer.
2. Taylor graduates Sunday. What? My little sister is graduating high school. She's leaving for Chico in August and I'm now understanding why my parents did what they did with us. They have three daughters in college and earning degrees. Pat on the back Stass and Mike. At 21 I finally get it. Taylor will figure this out someday as well...and you'll get more thank you's.
3. Writing has become a hidden talent that everyone forgot about...including me. I wish I had more time to write. That's a lie...I have the time...but I think I lost my heart somewhere back when writing became a chore. I read a book by Buddy Wakefield and he wrote that he writes even if it sucks. I think I should follow his lead. I think.
4. Weddings have a potential fun sign over them. I'm not a huge fan of settling and maybe that's why they freak me a little. Food, dancing, love. Eh...then again...what's wrong with them again? ;)
5. My hair is unruly. I believe it to have a mind of its own and I would enjoy it getting chopped really soon. I would prefer this event occur before I am going to be attending events that people actually stare at me. Contrary to popular belief, I do care what people think. I know I know...individualistic me just got run over by the 2009 society we call the majority.
6. Banana nut cheerios make for a good breakfast...and dinner. Who can diet when there's a cereal sale at target 90% of the time? If it has banana in the title, does that mean it's a little healthy for you? Don't give me the answer if its no.
7. In two weeks I will officially be a senior in college.
8. Kaitlynn is coming home soon. Then she will leave again in August just like she always does. Only this time, Taylor will also leave. How come I feel backwards? And how come my path doesn't come with a new place to rest my head? I suppose this is the end of me feeling sorry for myself.
9. I can't wait until work begins. This means I can delve into new literature and finally separate voluntary reading from textbook reading.
10. "There is no sadder sight than a young pessimist, except an old optimist" - Mark Twain.
2. Taylor graduates Sunday. What? My little sister is graduating high school. She's leaving for Chico in August and I'm now understanding why my parents did what they did with us. They have three daughters in college and earning degrees. Pat on the back Stass and Mike. At 21 I finally get it. Taylor will figure this out someday as well...and you'll get more thank you's.
3. Writing has become a hidden talent that everyone forgot about...including me. I wish I had more time to write. That's a lie...I have the time...but I think I lost my heart somewhere back when writing became a chore. I read a book by Buddy Wakefield and he wrote that he writes even if it sucks. I think I should follow his lead. I think.
4. Weddings have a potential fun sign over them. I'm not a huge fan of settling and maybe that's why they freak me a little. Food, dancing, love. Eh...then again...what's wrong with them again? ;)
5. My hair is unruly. I believe it to have a mind of its own and I would enjoy it getting chopped really soon. I would prefer this event occur before I am going to be attending events that people actually stare at me. Contrary to popular belief, I do care what people think. I know I know...individualistic me just got run over by the 2009 society we call the majority.
6. Banana nut cheerios make for a good breakfast...and dinner. Who can diet when there's a cereal sale at target 90% of the time? If it has banana in the title, does that mean it's a little healthy for you? Don't give me the answer if its no.
7. In two weeks I will officially be a senior in college.
8. Kaitlynn is coming home soon. Then she will leave again in August just like she always does. Only this time, Taylor will also leave. How come I feel backwards? And how come my path doesn't come with a new place to rest my head? I suppose this is the end of me feeling sorry for myself.
9. I can't wait until work begins. This means I can delve into new literature and finally separate voluntary reading from textbook reading.
10. "There is no sadder sight than a young pessimist, except an old optimist" - Mark Twain.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
219. In B Flat
This is quite amazing. Blew my mind. Its a spoken word/music project that was used as a demo. Two guys asked frequent youtube users and musicians to submit a musical piece in b flat. It couldn't be too flashy, loud, or have much rhythm. The point was to flow well with other people's mixes. The site has gotten pretty popular. Have fun with it. I played them all at once and it was incredible. You can play one at a time...2 at a time...all of them...doesnt matter. Adjust their volumes if you want one instrument to be the lead. Pretty dope. Enjoy!
www.inbflat.net
www.inbflat.net
Thursday, May 14, 2009
218. Disney.
What's better than having your second class cancelled?
Having the class before it end an hour early.
With all this free time I suppose I'll share this. Ah Disney, how you constantly bring me back to places I wished I had never had to leave. I used to know Ariel. She swam far away though. Anywho...enjoy enjoy enjoy!
Peace, Blessings, and Disney.
Having the class before it end an hour early.
With all this free time I suppose I'll share this. Ah Disney, how you constantly bring me back to places I wished I had never had to leave. I used to know Ariel. She swam far away though. Anywho...enjoy enjoy enjoy!
Peace, Blessings, and Disney.
Monday, May 4, 2009
217. A Diamond in the Rough
In late 2006 I was searching for a new artist to add to my collection of extraordinary acoustic/alternative songs that I wish I had written. I stumbled across a man named Jason Reeves and checked out his music. At the time, he was relatively unknown. His music was crazy amazing and caught my ear instantaneously. Through him I was able to find other wonderful artists such as Colbie Caillat (before she became mainstream) and enjoyed their music as underground independent artists. I wrote Jason a few times expressing my thanks and appreciation for his unique writing stylings as well as ability to hit home with so many of the songs he had written. He was gracious enough to respond every single time and encourage me to continue listening as he was pursuing his dreams and being thankful for every single minute of it. If you've ever ridden in a car with me, you know that Jason Reeves appears on numerous cds that I own and I will emphatically express my love for his music for hours on end to you. Today in the midst of my work I came across this video. Kara DioGuardi is amazing and influential and for her to recognize Jason as a key player in the upcoming music industry means everything. I digg both of them. I also digg this song. Enjoy. =]
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
This could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
I only said it
'Cause I mean it (ohhhh)
I only mean it
'Cause it's true (ohhhhh)
So don't you tear
What i've been dreaming
'Cause it keeps me up
It holds me close
Whenever I'm without you
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star o
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
This could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
I only said it
'Cause I mean it (ohhhh)
I only mean it
'Cause it's true (ohhhhh)
So don't you tear
What i've been dreaming
'Cause it keeps me up
It holds me close
Whenever I'm without you
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star o
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
Friday, May 1, 2009
216. Shadows
"Admit it, you wanted to be an artist. But everything inside you got scared and creativity doesn't come with a harness"
I should get back to writing. I was way more centered. Guess I must wait until something grabs me again. Writing if you're hiding...don't worry, I'll find you.
I should find myself first.
I should get back to writing. I was way more centered. Guess I must wait until something grabs me again. Writing if you're hiding...don't worry, I'll find you.
I should find myself first.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
215. 21 in T minus...
ehhhh like 9 hours. =]
I share a birthday. I've always shared a birthday. I've never felt what it feels to have a day solely to myself. Then again, when you think about it...everyone shares a birthday with someone. Whether that person be your best friend (by coincidence), a neighbor down the street, or a stranger halfway across the globe...we share days. I am fortunate enough to have my special day be with someone who has always been close to me...literally, figuratively, lalala. My twin...Kaitlynn...shares my birthday. It's kind of a cool concept really. When we were younger it meant double the presents, double the cake, and double the birthday song (and lets be honest...who doesn't like that birthday song...especially at that high note towards the end that no one can ever seem to hit..but sung in unison it creates a beautiful melody that erupts in joyous harmony). I digress...getting older was fun as well. I'd wish Kaitlynn a happy birthday and know that she would wish it right back to me. I often run around the house screaming for an entire minute starting at 10:51 PM and ending at the start of 10:52 PM...for I am, in that minute, older than Kaitlynn. For example, at 10:51 PM tomorrow...I will be 21...and Kaitlynn will be 20...if we are doing things logistically that is. Following my pattern...I will be 21. Yes, 21...legal. Starting tomorrow I can legally buy alcohol for the little kids down the street. Notice how I said can...as in choice...as in I will NOT be partaking in that act (although the concept seems so thrilling to me in slighted manner). For the first time in 21 years...I won't be spending my actual birthday with Kaitlynn. I guess that means no double presents, no double cake, and no double birthday song. I like being nostalgic and remembering birthdays with Kaitlynn because I'm not quite sure I'm ready to have one without her. The day will move and as soon as I see her Saturday all will be forgotten until the following year...but I'll still miss it.
What I'm truly getting at here is that I am lucky. I am lucky to share a birthday with someone who knows me better than anyone. So while tomorrow, for the first time, I will celebrate my birthday without Kaitlynn...giving me a true taste of a day solely to myself, I will still be thinking of it as her birthday...our birthday. It's kind of fun to wish someone else Happy Birthday on your actual birthday. So with that said, Happy Birthday Kaitlynn. Tomorrow I will miss you, but I am ever thankful and blessed to share my...our very special day.
I share a birthday. I've always shared a birthday. I've never felt what it feels to have a day solely to myself. Then again, when you think about it...everyone shares a birthday with someone. Whether that person be your best friend (by coincidence), a neighbor down the street, or a stranger halfway across the globe...we share days. I am fortunate enough to have my special day be with someone who has always been close to me...literally, figuratively, lalala. My twin...Kaitlynn...shares my birthday. It's kind of a cool concept really. When we were younger it meant double the presents, double the cake, and double the birthday song (and lets be honest...who doesn't like that birthday song...especially at that high note towards the end that no one can ever seem to hit..but sung in unison it creates a beautiful melody that erupts in joyous harmony). I digress...getting older was fun as well. I'd wish Kaitlynn a happy birthday and know that she would wish it right back to me. I often run around the house screaming for an entire minute starting at 10:51 PM and ending at the start of 10:52 PM...for I am, in that minute, older than Kaitlynn. For example, at 10:51 PM tomorrow...I will be 21...and Kaitlynn will be 20...if we are doing things logistically that is. Following my pattern...I will be 21. Yes, 21...legal. Starting tomorrow I can legally buy alcohol for the little kids down the street. Notice how I said can...as in choice...as in I will NOT be partaking in that act (although the concept seems so thrilling to me in slighted manner). For the first time in 21 years...I won't be spending my actual birthday with Kaitlynn. I guess that means no double presents, no double cake, and no double birthday song. I like being nostalgic and remembering birthdays with Kaitlynn because I'm not quite sure I'm ready to have one without her. The day will move and as soon as I see her Saturday all will be forgotten until the following year...but I'll still miss it.
What I'm truly getting at here is that I am lucky. I am lucky to share a birthday with someone who knows me better than anyone. So while tomorrow, for the first time, I will celebrate my birthday without Kaitlynn...giving me a true taste of a day solely to myself, I will still be thinking of it as her birthday...our birthday. It's kind of fun to wish someone else Happy Birthday on your actual birthday. So with that said, Happy Birthday Kaitlynn. Tomorrow I will miss you, but I am ever thankful and blessed to share my...our very special day.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
214. ....
Someone called me the luckiest...girl...in the world.
I told them to hold up
slow up
blow up
back up
and understand that although luck has come my way this day
it hasn't always been so fruitful, if you will.
But I will- take advantage of this situation
I've chosen to write right words after much deliberation.
The sun comes through my window and I breathe the sigh of relief
as it's in my belief to understand that I have the whole world..in my arms.
There you are lying on my shoulder
as I am the blanket when your world becomes colder
hoping silently that this can still be a portrait as we get older.
And I want to let you know that if my life were a book
you would be my favorite chapter
and I would not give a damn about the pages that came before or after...or
the authors note in the beginning
which would have me singing
your favorite song
in melodies that have never been heard because
when I'm with you I feel feelings that have never been felt
causing my insides to begin to melt
and my heart feeling a tad sappy and-
I once promised that sappiness was only for the trees
but a sudden light breeze has me questioning why I ever
gave that right only to the forests-
for us...is something so sappy in the air
that even "being green" cant honestly compare.
So I stay with being blue.
And not being blue in the sense that I'm sad-
being blue in the sense that if you had to pick your favorite color
that's the one you would grab
and I would want you to be with me so..
I pick blue.
And if I had to run around the world twice to show my dedication
I would do it three times without any hesitation,
rush back into your arms after
and recite the longest dissertation on how everything I just witnessed
three times around this earth...
couldn't compare to anything that I know you are worth.
Look, I think you're wonderful and I'm so blessed to stand with you
I wish I had the courage to say everything I planned to.
I speak in front of hundreds having conversations that are new
about feelings, emotions, relationships and act like they already knew.
I then come home look in your eyes, get lost, and hundreds turn to two-
turn to you- my favorite who- I speak about to the hundreds.
Just know that even when I get nervous-
hundreds are just strangers
who read and listen and endanger
their ears and eyes for some poor sap who needs an audience.
But you..
you are my night sky and all the stars that fill it.
You are the street lamps that guide my way home so well lit.
You are the sunny days, the actual sun rays,
and the lemonade that cools the heat down on those hot summer days.
You are the inspiration to the poem-
the one that I call home,
resting on my shoulder as my once hard body turns to foam.
Once more I look out my window as the day is welcomed through-
just know you're everything I ever meant to say...
I find myself...through you.
I told them to hold up
slow up
blow up
back up
and understand that although luck has come my way this day
it hasn't always been so fruitful, if you will.
But I will- take advantage of this situation
I've chosen to write right words after much deliberation.
The sun comes through my window and I breathe the sigh of relief
as it's in my belief to understand that I have the whole world..in my arms.
There you are lying on my shoulder
as I am the blanket when your world becomes colder
hoping silently that this can still be a portrait as we get older.
And I want to let you know that if my life were a book
you would be my favorite chapter
and I would not give a damn about the pages that came before or after...or
the authors note in the beginning
which would have me singing
your favorite song
in melodies that have never been heard because
when I'm with you I feel feelings that have never been felt
causing my insides to begin to melt
and my heart feeling a tad sappy and-
I once promised that sappiness was only for the trees
but a sudden light breeze has me questioning why I ever
gave that right only to the forests-
for us...is something so sappy in the air
that even "being green" cant honestly compare.
So I stay with being blue.
And not being blue in the sense that I'm sad-
being blue in the sense that if you had to pick your favorite color
that's the one you would grab
and I would want you to be with me so..
I pick blue.
And if I had to run around the world twice to show my dedication
I would do it three times without any hesitation,
rush back into your arms after
and recite the longest dissertation on how everything I just witnessed
three times around this earth...
couldn't compare to anything that I know you are worth.
Look, I think you're wonderful and I'm so blessed to stand with you
I wish I had the courage to say everything I planned to.
I speak in front of hundreds having conversations that are new
about feelings, emotions, relationships and act like they already knew.
I then come home look in your eyes, get lost, and hundreds turn to two-
turn to you- my favorite who- I speak about to the hundreds.
Just know that even when I get nervous-
hundreds are just strangers
who read and listen and endanger
their ears and eyes for some poor sap who needs an audience.
But you..
you are my night sky and all the stars that fill it.
You are the street lamps that guide my way home so well lit.
You are the sunny days, the actual sun rays,
and the lemonade that cools the heat down on those hot summer days.
You are the inspiration to the poem-
the one that I call home,
resting on my shoulder as my once hard body turns to foam.
Once more I look out my window as the day is welcomed through-
just know you're everything I ever meant to say...
I find myself...through you.
Friday, April 3, 2009
212. Where I need to be.
"Being an intellectual creates a lot of questions and no answers. You can fill your life up with ideas and still go home lonely. All you really have that really matters are feelings. That's what music is to me." - Janis Joplin
Aloha and Happy Friday. Airborne is the new water. First week of school was a success. My birthday is in 20 days. I turn 21. Coldstone is in my near future. I want to skateboard around the house. Aloha.
Aloha and Happy Friday. Airborne is the new water. First week of school was a success. My birthday is in 20 days. I turn 21. Coldstone is in my near future. I want to skateboard around the house. Aloha.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
211. School is...
not quite here yet...minus my online class. Thursday starts the madness once more.
Happiness is...
- 2 week spring break.
- crackberry updates.
- POS third CD.
- Wizards of Waverly Place.
- Captain Crunch.
- Spring weather.
- Sandwiches.
- Wii fit.
- Getting fit.
- Game boy...color.
- Agua.
- Phineas and Ferb.
- The color orange.
- Birthday month!
- Target and it's magical ways.
- V-neck shirts.
- Banana nut Cheerios.
- Kite flying.
- Lunch in a park.
- Cupcakes.
- Ferry rides to the city.
- Pier 39.
- Making new friends.
- Clean laundry.
- Clean room.
- Clean car.
- Street fighter.
- Hot chocolate.
- New notebooks.
- Buying cheap books.
- Fruit.
- American Idol sometimes.
- Quentin and our adventures.
- Learning to play poker and other card games.
- Rummikub.
- Grey's Anatomy.
- Car wash.
- Monsters vs. Aliens.
- Making up songs.
- Tacos.
- Sweaters even though it's too hot to wear them now.
- Sunglasses.
- Days off.
- Naps.
- Thai anything.
- Wanting a longboard.
- Jking.
- Cassaud.
- Taylor and her text jokes.
- Jello.
- Turning 21 in less than a month.
- Pizza when it's thai.
- Drawing Phineas.
- Selena Gomez.
- Gum.
- Fun times.
- Good rhymes.
- Green slime.
- The band sublime.
- Zodiac signs.
- Perfectly straight lines.
- Really good mimes.
- =]
Happiness is...
- 2 week spring break.
- crackberry updates.
- POS third CD.
- Wizards of Waverly Place.
- Captain Crunch.
- Spring weather.
- Sandwiches.
- Wii fit.
- Getting fit.
- Game boy...color.
- Agua.
- Phineas and Ferb.
- The color orange.
- Birthday month!
- Target and it's magical ways.
- V-neck shirts.
- Banana nut Cheerios.
- Kite flying.
- Lunch in a park.
- Cupcakes.
- Ferry rides to the city.
- Pier 39.
- Making new friends.
- Clean laundry.
- Clean room.
- Clean car.
- Street fighter.
- Hot chocolate.
- New notebooks.
- Buying cheap books.
- Fruit.
- American Idol sometimes.
- Quentin and our adventures.
- Learning to play poker and other card games.
- Rummikub.
- Grey's Anatomy.
- Car wash.
- Monsters vs. Aliens.
- Making up songs.
- Tacos.
- Sweaters even though it's too hot to wear them now.
- Sunglasses.
- Days off.
- Naps.
- Thai anything.
- Wanting a longboard.
- Jking.
- Cassaud.
- Taylor and her text jokes.
- Jello.
- Turning 21 in less than a month.
- Pizza when it's thai.
- Drawing Phineas.
- Selena Gomez.
- Gum.
- Fun times.
- Good rhymes.
- Green slime.
- The band sublime.
- Zodiac signs.
- Perfectly straight lines.
- Really good mimes.
- =]
Sunday, March 29, 2009
210. Goodbye Spring Break...
Hello Spring Quarter.
Can you just look at me. I mean, all of me? Because I can't lie to you and say that half of what you know is what you love. Sometimes I need that; someone being a professional at hide and go seek to find the rest of what I hide behind the abundance of what I claim as unimportant to even myself which causes you to forget. Truth be spoken, even though it becomes less important to you, I hope you do it anyway. I used to think that an exclusive tongue would save me from a tyrant, but they still come. 1 does not turn into 100 regardless of how powerful the wave and sun and healing. Secret truth is my palms often claim my face like stitches, only in comfortable silence and night hours that would send vibrations back through the now tear catching fingertips; however, my heart, more than eardrums, loves to listen, so it spilled a cup once over – so slow was I to recollect those recollections of a voice inside you screaming your held tight past. Once, I thought “I love to like you, but I’d like to love you less because unless you have for me a broken piece of you to stay the night, I won’t if that’s all I have to offer you.” But broken is as broken does my doings, so I’ll depart a dusty shelf willing to spring clean, and break my spine to numbered pages. And read me, like you do so well even when your eyes are closed. If you do wish, as I wish you do...grab your greatest pair of binoculars and stare for hours even if it is all pretend so I will know - that you are looking- or in some fashion...trying to.
Can you just look at me. I mean, all of me? Because I can't lie to you and say that half of what you know is what you love. Sometimes I need that; someone being a professional at hide and go seek to find the rest of what I hide behind the abundance of what I claim as unimportant to even myself which causes you to forget. Truth be spoken, even though it becomes less important to you, I hope you do it anyway. I used to think that an exclusive tongue would save me from a tyrant, but they still come. 1 does not turn into 100 regardless of how powerful the wave and sun and healing. Secret truth is my palms often claim my face like stitches, only in comfortable silence and night hours that would send vibrations back through the now tear catching fingertips; however, my heart, more than eardrums, loves to listen, so it spilled a cup once over – so slow was I to recollect those recollections of a voice inside you screaming your held tight past. Once, I thought “I love to like you, but I’d like to love you less because unless you have for me a broken piece of you to stay the night, I won’t if that’s all I have to offer you.” But broken is as broken does my doings, so I’ll depart a dusty shelf willing to spring clean, and break my spine to numbered pages. And read me, like you do so well even when your eyes are closed. If you do wish, as I wish you do...grab your greatest pair of binoculars and stare for hours even if it is all pretend so I will know - that you are looking- or in some fashion...trying to.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
209. Marching sideways.
Until you find yourself, its impossible to lose you
Uh..because I never had you...
Although I would be glad to..
I probably go and tattoo..your name on my heart,
I swear
I start,
To think,
That I'm going crazy.
Uh..because I never had you...
Although I would be glad to..
I probably go and tattoo..your name on my heart,
I swear
I start,
To think,
That I'm going crazy.
208. WebMD.
Taylor is quite sick. Quite sick meaning a fever ranging from 102-104 for the past 4 days. It's not a cold...or the flu...so we aren't quite sure what she has come down with. Luckily I am on break and have been keeping her company with movies, music, and fun stories. This morning the doctor was the plan since this mystery illness has not calmed down on its own. Since Taylor hates the doctor...and I'm the next qualified answer (obviously)...I pulled out WebMD. According to her symptoms...these are the possibilities for Taylor:
- middle ear infection.
- acute sinusitis.
- influenza.
- migraine.
- depression.
- earwax blockage.
- muscle strain.
- chronic sinusitis.
- anemia.
- postpartum depression.
- tension headache.
- medication reaction.
- bacterial pneumonia.
- excessive caffeine use.
- anxiety disorder.
- nearsightedness.
- foreign object in the ear canal.
- insomnia.
- Lyme disease.
We had a good laugh with a few of these.
Ah, WebMD. Thank you for the suggestions. I'll go with Lyme disease. Those darn ticks.
- middle ear infection.
- acute sinusitis.
- influenza.
- migraine.
- depression.
- earwax blockage.
- muscle strain.
- chronic sinusitis.
- anemia.
- postpartum depression.
- tension headache.
- medication reaction.
- bacterial pneumonia.
- excessive caffeine use.
- anxiety disorder.
- nearsightedness.
- foreign object in the ear canal.
- insomnia.
- Lyme disease.
We had a good laugh with a few of these.
Ah, WebMD. Thank you for the suggestions. I'll go with Lyme disease. Those darn ticks.
Monday, March 23, 2009
207. Renovation
I haven't been here in about 20 days.
I'm not sure why.
Maybe it's because I have been a slave in school.
Maybe it's because life has been making me dodge large stones.
Maybe it's because I have turned from share all to share none. (I say that in the least selfish way possible.)
Buuut it's probably because I keep forgetting to update. Probably.
It's Spring Break. My grades turned out fantastic. The storm rages on with more clouds accumulating daily. I'm okay with storms...they don't last forever. All I want is a slurpee, a donut, and some adventures. =]
Peace and Blessings...
I'm not sure why.
Maybe it's because I have been a slave in school.
Maybe it's because life has been making me dodge large stones.
Maybe it's because I have turned from share all to share none. (I say that in the least selfish way possible.)
Buuut it's probably because I keep forgetting to update. Probably.
It's Spring Break. My grades turned out fantastic. The storm rages on with more clouds accumulating daily. I'm okay with storms...they don't last forever. All I want is a slurpee, a donut, and some adventures. =]
Peace and Blessings...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
206. Amazing.
One of the dopest Beatles covers I've ever heard in my life. These two are bananas with their work on the keys and vocals. And this is just a short jam session. Hats off.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
205. New Era.
The world ain't ready.
A true collabo.
Written: Girl Wonder
Spoken: Asoulfoolwonder
Like I said, the world ain't ready...but they might just have to be.
A true collabo.
Written: Girl Wonder
Spoken: Asoulfoolwonder
Like I said, the world ain't ready...but they might just have to be.
Monday, February 23, 2009
204. Sliced Bread.
The best thing since. Quite possibly I'm exaggerating however...it comes close. Ah, underground how I love thee. Check it. Fickie Fickieee...
Crumble - G. Love & Special Sauce
Oh snap my plan’s come undone
I’m free falling darlin’ and the rising sun
is brushin’, on your cheek shining steady through the blinds
I thought I told myself that I would take my time
I’m sure I said I wasn’t ready,
she said she wasn’t looking
it’s not my fault that she’s so good looking
but she is just my type
but I was holdin a single light that
I plan to follow
but she says she’s emotionally unavailable-
whatever that means I’m down with that
she kicked the cat out kid so I didn’t talk back
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
Two weeks past and I still didn’t call,
but your name was in my brain like graffiti on the train
I wanted to hit ya up, but I didn’t have your number
I saw you on the bus but you were chillin’ with some other guy
I was like damn, I was jealous,
but you gave me a look
and you smiled just the same
and three hours later, my phone did ring
and it was you telling me would I like to chill
at this bar on the block that was real laid back
and I’m like, “yea it’s on”
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other,
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
When no one knows what tomorrow will bring,
but you can fall back on me when you can’t win.
This world is moving faster tougher every day,
aw baby just take a deep breath and let your troubles all fade away.
I showed up late that really T’d her off.
We couldn’t agree on much but the vibes were strong.
Basically I fell in love with those big green eyes,
you can say what you want cuz I was mesmerized.
Now three years later and it feels so fresh-
We stick together, sunshine, stormy weather.
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other,
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
=]
Crumble - G. Love & Special Sauce
Oh snap my plan’s come undone
I’m free falling darlin’ and the rising sun
is brushin’, on your cheek shining steady through the blinds
I thought I told myself that I would take my time
I’m sure I said I wasn’t ready,
she said she wasn’t looking
it’s not my fault that she’s so good looking
but she is just my type
but I was holdin a single light that
I plan to follow
but she says she’s emotionally unavailable-
whatever that means I’m down with that
she kicked the cat out kid so I didn’t talk back
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
Two weeks past and I still didn’t call,
but your name was in my brain like graffiti on the train
I wanted to hit ya up, but I didn’t have your number
I saw you on the bus but you were chillin’ with some other guy
I was like damn, I was jealous,
but you gave me a look
and you smiled just the same
and three hours later, my phone did ring
and it was you telling me would I like to chill
at this bar on the block that was real laid back
and I’m like, “yea it’s on”
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other,
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
When no one knows what tomorrow will bring,
but you can fall back on me when you can’t win.
This world is moving faster tougher every day,
aw baby just take a deep breath and let your troubles all fade away.
I showed up late that really T’d her off.
We couldn’t agree on much but the vibes were strong.
Basically I fell in love with those big green eyes,
you can say what you want cuz I was mesmerized.
Now three years later and it feels so fresh-
We stick together, sunshine, stormy weather.
Clouds are running through the sky
shifting shapes and I know why.
They say that that’s what happens when you’re busy making plans,
wind blows the same I start to understand.
You and I were meant for each other,
and we’ll always stick together when the world starts to crumble
Say Hey hey
Let me hear you say hey
You can fall on me
=]
Sunday, February 8, 2009
203. iWrite.
out of all the silly places
the less concerned and cornered traces
of bread crumbs that crumbled beneath my fingers,
i thought i picked up those pieces
the last time i traveled home for peace
as i release the last dying breath of something new
i knew it was too good to be true.
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
ashes to ashes and dusk is what i trust
the blackness of the night and the feeling of lust
i walk crooked pavements wishing something would refocus,
this town seemed so simple before the thoughts plus one
to one who won its hard so hard when i was unknown
all full of wine, the world before the show
was really quite sober with no place to go.
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
and here i am now, rivers of ink to document
the document of ages snap back, relapse, and confess
its just stress.
muster up the courage to settle where i choose,
muster up the courage to hold it in while i still lose
breathe out and let it go because my soul is hardest to bruise.
if i could say sorry,
and i can say sorry,
it wouldn't be because i'm sorry.
so i hold my mouth with tape
pen to paper as a scrape
the words flow fingertips
theres a quiver in my lip
please dont forget this tip..
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
a very much needed flow session. thanks for the inspiration.
the less concerned and cornered traces
of bread crumbs that crumbled beneath my fingers,
i thought i picked up those pieces
the last time i traveled home for peace
as i release the last dying breath of something new
i knew it was too good to be true.
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
ashes to ashes and dusk is what i trust
the blackness of the night and the feeling of lust
i walk crooked pavements wishing something would refocus,
this town seemed so simple before the thoughts plus one
to one who won its hard so hard when i was unknown
all full of wine, the world before the show
was really quite sober with no place to go.
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
and here i am now, rivers of ink to document
the document of ages snap back, relapse, and confess
its just stress.
muster up the courage to settle where i choose,
muster up the courage to hold it in while i still lose
breathe out and let it go because my soul is hardest to bruise.
if i could say sorry,
and i can say sorry,
it wouldn't be because i'm sorry.
so i hold my mouth with tape
pen to paper as a scrape
the words flow fingertips
theres a quiver in my lip
please dont forget this tip..
for the rain seeps in as you seep out
and the nothingness of people still fill me with doubt
i took all our pictures down
noise outside and i still hear no sound
mewithoutyou is the only phrase that will resound.
a very much needed flow session. thanks for the inspiration.
202. Back
lack of words, hardly lack of verbs but when it comes to slinging sayings i come cuttin curbs never meant to hurt you badly it ended me hurtin sadly, sadly i dont think i care give me another reason cause i already have my reason for air.
- girl wonder
verse coming soon.
meantime...
AX. one of the craziest word surgeons in the game right now and no one even knows it. his accomplice on this piece is tyler from gym class heroes. watch for him this year. nothing cuts deeper than true words.
- girl wonder
verse coming soon.
meantime...
AX. one of the craziest word surgeons in the game right now and no one even knows it. his accomplice on this piece is tyler from gym class heroes. watch for him this year. nothing cuts deeper than true words.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
201. Temptations Twist
Things have been hectic. I wish things would slow down a bit, but in true Girl Wonder fashion they cant..and wont. That's all okay with me. Since I can't slow down...I like to watch things that CAN in fact slow things down. J-Boog is one of my favorite artists and soo many people sleep on this dude it's unreal. So I'm here to get you up to speed on him and wake ya up with what he does. True Island music. One of my favorite songs...he does it justice in his own way.
Have a smooth week everyone. Peace and Blessings.
Have a smooth week everyone. Peace and Blessings.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
200. Thank you.
Thank you....for reading. I say it often, but probably not often enough. I figured I needed something big for 200 posts but...thanks seemed to be crawling in my mind. I'm still not sure of everyone that reads this. Ill probably never know that answer. Just know that I do appretiate it, and I notice it. Thanks a billion. Means the world to me.
Ever to excel,
GW
Ever to excel,
GW
Monday, January 19, 2009
199. Underneath it all.
I guess people start at the beginning. It makes the most sense, you could probably follow this a little easier. Truth is...this has no beginning. The beginning is for me to know. The beginning is for me to hold on to. I should just explain my present to you. I should tell you that every morning when I wake up it's ten times better than when I went to sleep the night before. You can imagine how that is day after day. I should tell you that when someone asks me how my heart is doing I tell them it's "lifted"...nothing more...nothing less. I should tell you that I've never been at a loss for words, and now I dream of writing and I dream of words and I go to put them down on paper and nothing that I write is a good enough description for anything that I'm feeling. It falls short...every time. I should tell you that it doesn't really matter because I feel that. For me to even say that I'm at a loss for words should be the description itself. I should tell you that there's nowhere else I'd rather be. The constant wanderer has sat cross legged under a street light in this dark alley of a struggle. I should tell you that the street light is a metaphor...and I hope you can figure out the underlying tones. I should tell you that I gave an award to someone today. I should tell you that I mean every word that I say. I should tell you that I'm happy.
I should tell you all of that.
I wish that a window shone through my heart to play the part of a screen play. I'd be first in line at the ticket booth, front row center, and pack snacks for days as I'd daze in and out of reality while my reality...is...just that. Just that of perfection- slighted by physical perception to see that good things really do happen to good people in good time. I'm instructed by it from it while it ticks away the ticking time of day and I'm the first to say and the last to stay but this time I'm backwards. You were first and I followed leads that led me through broken trees into a breeze that I had prayed for since I discovered what attraction was all about. There's something about your voice. Something about the way you say Ashley or half that or just open up to start to speak when I can peek past that mask that I've finally gotten under to get under some skin and feel what it feels to feel. Past your voice to the hands with the touch second sense makes sense that tense is a word seldom used while around you and you...touch me...down my arm interlocking fingers and we interlock a gaze and raise everyone else's level of wishing on shooting stars but baby I've shot mars...past this galaxy of waisting time into something known as "what's yours is mine."
At night, I used to wish that the stars would whisper my prayers to the heavens because I was afraid my faith wouldn't stretch far enough. The stars must have screamed and shouted my words.
I should send a thank you card to those stars.
I should tell you all of that.
I wish that a window shone through my heart to play the part of a screen play. I'd be first in line at the ticket booth, front row center, and pack snacks for days as I'd daze in and out of reality while my reality...is...just that. Just that of perfection- slighted by physical perception to see that good things really do happen to good people in good time. I'm instructed by it from it while it ticks away the ticking time of day and I'm the first to say and the last to stay but this time I'm backwards. You were first and I followed leads that led me through broken trees into a breeze that I had prayed for since I discovered what attraction was all about. There's something about your voice. Something about the way you say Ashley or half that or just open up to start to speak when I can peek past that mask that I've finally gotten under to get under some skin and feel what it feels to feel. Past your voice to the hands with the touch second sense makes sense that tense is a word seldom used while around you and you...touch me...down my arm interlocking fingers and we interlock a gaze and raise everyone else's level of wishing on shooting stars but baby I've shot mars...past this galaxy of waisting time into something known as "what's yours is mine."
At night, I used to wish that the stars would whisper my prayers to the heavens because I was afraid my faith wouldn't stretch far enough. The stars must have screamed and shouted my words.
I should send a thank you card to those stars.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
198. I almost forgot...
my password into blogger. hahaha. oh, me. i suppose that's what i get for not posting in almost a month. yikes.
Happiness is...
- red sweater and his antics.
- finding my wwjd bracelet again.
- my ninja turtle toy.
- my dino toys.
- making my dino toys fight.
- ipod.
- blue full throttles.
- new classes.
- peanut butter sandwiches.
- red blinking berry.
- a clean car.
- dark denim.
- black earrings.
- 70 degree weather in mid january.
- throwing for the first time in a year.
- jasmines.
- telling jking im getting dreds.
- planning on getting dreds.
- just kidding.
- wake up calls.
- my cave when there aren't clothes on the floor.
- getting a job.
- making money.
- life plans.
- new sweaters.
- songs with purpose.
- quotes from philosophy.
- reading a giant book.
- slippers.
- black socks.
- half cabs.
- having little care.
- good days for my hair.
- waking up like a bear.
- not having to swear.
- my big comfy chair.
- believing in the program d.a.r.e
- finding another person like me in the world...thats..rare.
- rhyming so good it gives you a scare.
- enough of that.
- popcorn.
- hot cheetos at anytime of the day or night.
- water.
- buddy wakefield.
- ronald takaki if he didn't write such a large book.
- green.
- brooklyn girls.
- pens that don't smear.
- american idol.
- my ukulele.
- wanting to be in a band.
- dreaming.
- kaitlynn still being home.
- missing people and then seeing them.
- cassaud forever and always.
- talking about my birthday.
- plans for the zoo.
- dinosaurs.
- slumdog millionaire.
- music from slumdog millionaire.
- believing in things again.
- parking stalls that don't make me walk 5 miles to class.
- sweats.
- braids.
- making random friends at school.
- clucks and fries.
- financial aid checks.
- boxing.
- money in the bank.
- shawty whatchu drank?
- applauding.
- big smiles.
- laughing until i cry.
- praying.
- wanting to skip everywhere i go.
- singing everything i say.
- talking in song lyrics.
- pie.
- banana cream pie.
- good news from doctors.
- brushing my teeth.
- mustard.
- wanting to play ps2.
- sunshineeee.
hello. so sorry for the lack in posts. kind of. see, my computer has been broken for a while and i haven't gotten a chance to get on. not to mention the pounds of homework that consume my life from here until eternity. oh well. i'm working on a little something that i will try and post by this weekend. until then...here's something i found useful for this week..and every week for that matter...
smile. =] peace and blessings ya'll.
Happiness is...
- red sweater and his antics.
- finding my wwjd bracelet again.
- my ninja turtle toy.
- my dino toys.
- making my dino toys fight.
- ipod.
- blue full throttles.
- new classes.
- peanut butter sandwiches.
- red blinking berry.
- a clean car.
- dark denim.
- black earrings.
- 70 degree weather in mid january.
- throwing for the first time in a year.
- jasmines.
- telling jking im getting dreds.
- planning on getting dreds.
- just kidding.
- wake up calls.
- my cave when there aren't clothes on the floor.
- getting a job.
- making money.
- life plans.
- new sweaters.
- songs with purpose.
- quotes from philosophy.
- reading a giant book.
- slippers.
- black socks.
- half cabs.
- having little care.
- good days for my hair.
- waking up like a bear.
- not having to swear.
- my big comfy chair.
- believing in the program d.a.r.e
- finding another person like me in the world...thats..rare.
- rhyming so good it gives you a scare.
- enough of that.
- popcorn.
- hot cheetos at anytime of the day or night.
- water.
- buddy wakefield.
- ronald takaki if he didn't write such a large book.
- green.
- brooklyn girls.
- pens that don't smear.
- american idol.
- my ukulele.
- wanting to be in a band.
- dreaming.
- kaitlynn still being home.
- missing people and then seeing them.
- cassaud forever and always.
- talking about my birthday.
- plans for the zoo.
- dinosaurs.
- slumdog millionaire.
- music from slumdog millionaire.
- believing in things again.
- parking stalls that don't make me walk 5 miles to class.
- sweats.
- braids.
- making random friends at school.
- clucks and fries.
- financial aid checks.
- boxing.
- money in the bank.
- shawty whatchu drank?
- applauding.
- big smiles.
- laughing until i cry.
- praying.
- wanting to skip everywhere i go.
- singing everything i say.
- talking in song lyrics.
- pie.
- banana cream pie.
- good news from doctors.
- brushing my teeth.
- mustard.
- wanting to play ps2.
- sunshineeee.
hello. so sorry for the lack in posts. kind of. see, my computer has been broken for a while and i haven't gotten a chance to get on. not to mention the pounds of homework that consume my life from here until eternity. oh well. i'm working on a little something that i will try and post by this weekend. until then...here's something i found useful for this week..and every week for that matter...
smile. =] peace and blessings ya'll.
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