236. The neverending X

The never ending X has two very straight lines
and sometimes...they seem to me very crooked.
The never ending X and I've bet you already guessed
has two different sides.
Right side is gentle, hurt and weeping
and that damn X has every heavy heart keeping
watch for the watch that tells the time of self pity.
Left side is angry, hurtful and mean
and I mean bitter- for the better of the X's life
came out of hardship, distraught, and strife.
The never ending X is a pain in my side
with its never ending lines I'll take infinity in strides
because I'm not sure if this X can be cured.
You see, the X who plays the fool will get caught quick
unless the spell you're under has you closer than a BIC
good shave poor grave for you've dug a deep one and I suppose I'll call you brave.
The never ending X is a monster of a letter.
The precious lines continue on and the game keeps getting better.
Feeling bad for the growth is all part of the plan
until birthday presents, christmas cards, and flowers overwhelm the fan-
because that stuff just hit it
and now I continue on as though I can't quit it.
The never ending X has never gone away
and it's now been almost three hundred and sixty five days.
Friend or foe it's sunk so low I can't grow and I can't know
what comes next...
X is first best with its
never ending lines
perfect memory times
keeping the most important person blind.
I am not blind clever X and I will catch you.
For you and I haven't had the chance for me to say everything I plan to.
Never ending X you keep on growing
and I keep on knowing that this...
that this...
that you...
can never disappear.