050. Profound pieces of me falling into another.

Kaitlynn is reading this book called "Eat, Pray, Love". Maybe you've heard of it. Oprah reccommended this book aaaand if you know me...you know I am soo down with Oprah. Kait is a good look out and brings over the book every time she has an "aha" moment. You know what that is? It's kinda like if something you read makes you think for longer than 5 seconds and your eyes squint reaaaal real tight like your brain is needing all of its energy to expand like a freshly blown balloon. Catchy riight? Hey, they dont call me the word doctor for no reason.

Here's a passage that makes me smile, think, and fall in love with the meaning. It's long...but worth it.

"I'm not laughing. I was actually crying. And please don't laugh at me now, but I believed David was my soul mate.
He probably was. Your problem is you don't undersand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal anothr layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can't let this one go. It's over, Groceries. David's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it's over. Problem is, you cant accept that this relationship had a real short shelf life. You're like a dog at the dump, baby- you're just lickin' at an empty tin can, trying o get more nutrition out of it. And if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it.
But I love him.
So love him.
But I miss him.
So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, and then drop it. You're just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you'll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she's really alone. But here's what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot- a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in- God will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go.
But I wish me and David could-
He cuts me off. See, now that's your problem. You'e wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing yur wishbone where your backbone oughtta be."




Riiight? =]


I got a tv in my room. I'm excited for that. I moved my ps2 in there aaand for the next million days if you need me you can find me playing tony hawk or jack and daxter or kingdom hearts orrr other silly things.


Yesterday I was up for 25 hours. I woke up at 4 AM for work and went to sleep at 5 AM. It was a good day to live. Haha guess that means I should get some rest. I have work early again in the morning.


Friday Playlist:
1. Come here - J. Holiday.
2. Only God knows why - Kid Rock.
3. Hundred - The Fray.
4. Mr. Postman - Lil Wayne.
5. Comfortable - Babyface ft Weezy.
6. Skippin - Mario.
7. Sexy can I - Ray J.
8. Blackout - Lupe Fiasco.