134. Favorite Holiday.

The Fourth of July is one of my favorite holidays. It always has been. It always will be. It's not because I go out and get crazy. Its not because I have a million things going that day. In this case, it's quite the opposite. I wake up just like any other day...and I relax. I take in the day and I enjoy the summer sun and the fact that I live in the coolest country (yes I am biased) on earth. I can stop and think and say I'd rather live somewhere else. Somewhere far far away, but I'd be lying to myself and everyone else who heard it. I'm excited for some bbq, some good family, some new music in my ears, and some fireworks. I'm easy to please.

Happiness is...
- waking up in the morning.
- speaking upstairs before bed.
- brown skin...I am more brown than you.
- paychecks that have many digits attached.
- tmobile not working.
- having a legit excuse for being MIA.
- new music.
- old music.
- music.
- not wearing shoes.
- lyrics that mean something.
- taylor acting as house maid.
- my journal.
- the writings that i produce daily.
- missing people.
- irony...all kinds of irony.
- fate and its twisted sense/definition of happy.
- food like bread.
- unexpected happenings.
- hitting kaitlynn and then making her laugh about it.
- i didn't hit her hard; breathe.
- telling my mom i need glasses just because i think they'd be cool.
- having a wonderful memory.
- getting a new pillow.
- aloe rid.
- smelling of chlorine in days that end with the letter y.
- bose headphones.
- victor coming home in less than two months.
- disneyland.
- pine mountain lake.
- definitely, maybe.
- kettle corn.
- songs that no one else can possibly understand.
- nostalgia.
- a man without a country.
- knowing that i have 10 million books to read over summer.
- smiling because i want to read them...and that's a lost art.
- art being the most beautiful lady, woman, man, gentleman i have ever seen.
- 6 weeks left.
- fake tattoos. you know...the stick on kind.
- "this boy" go listen.
- turning everyone onto one song for weeks and weeks and knowing i did that.
- being glad things didn't turn out one way, and that they are where they are.
- fans.
- sunscreen spf 90...you know..zinc.
- kidding.
- spf 50 for real.
- swimming swimming swimming.
- cleaning.
- seeing dad in a sweeeet neon jacket riding a bike when im driving home.
- watching lil mama say "kill't" and "turn't".
- watching lil mama.
- kaitlynn's hair being coopers texture.
- peasant.
- captain crunch.
- my arielle painting.
- her.
- bella vida.





I am one very happy girl these days. I think it's beautiful how things work out, you know. It's also very beautiful how one thing can turn your life completely around. Even when its not...around...if that makes any sense. The happening could be in the middle of space at the moment and I sit here in my chair believing that life can't become anymore lovely. And yet...to my surprise with every single passing moment and memory and idea that appears in my head...the level of beauty releases a brand new color for my eyes to take on. I have the color pallet right in front of me, and my arms can barely hold all of the vibrancy. Yes, it exists. Yes, it really is like that.


Happy Fourth of July. Happiness is.