161. Dreams. Dreams? Dreams!

I'm hanging out with Kaitlynn yesterday, having a nice time watching a movie...and she comes at me with this. "Ash I had a dream that you drowned!!!"

...hmm....okay, no that's cool. I mean...no big thing.

Sike. Take the opposite of that, and you have my entire reaction.

The dream goes like this:

Kaitlynn is the lifeguard at this huge swimming facility. There are tons of babies, kids, and adults swimming around. Everyone starts to drown. Kaitlynn (single handily) saves every single person...except one. So she's saving babies left and right throwing people out of the water like superguard or something and she hops out of the water and that's that. Her boss comes over and says "There is one adult female that's unaccounted for. When she washes up on shore hide her in the closet". Meanwhile while her boss is speaking she sees the adult female on the bottom of the pool. She sees a body lying there underneath the water but makes no move to save or tell her boss about the body. She just watches it. Moments later, after her boss leaves, the body washes up to shore. Low and behold...its yours truly. Apparently I'm dry...wearing clothes and my hair is perfect. I spit out water...I'm alive. Kait finally sees that it's me that washed up...and wakes up.




My first thoughts? Apparently Kaitlynn has some resentment towards me. Watching me drown. I'm joking. I freaked...a little. I'm paranoid like that. Or I can be. I called miss wonderful and she told me what it really meant.

Kaitlynn subconsciously knows that I can save myself from my own hard times. Although it may seem like she let me drown...she didn't. She knew the whole time that I would make it. Kaitlynn saved the ones who needed saving. I'm able to save myself. It shows that Kaitlynn knows that I'm going through something right now that is a little hard for me. This is symbolized by me drowning underwater. She also knows that I can and will make it on my own once again and she will be right there when I find a way to the surface again...right next to me. She watches me under right now...but I suppose it's something that I need to do alone.




I'm not waving, I'm drowning.





And that, my friends, is the most real piece of my life at the moment. When other people are dreaming it? Haha...now I know its real.









I had a beautiful dinner with Kaitlynn and Victor tonight. We went to on the border and it turned out to be like a hug from the inside. Tacos. =]




and as the summer's ending,
the cold air rush your hard heart away.
you were so condescending,
and this is all that's left
scraping paper to document.
i've packed a change of clothes...and it's time to move on.






Welcome, Fall. I'm ready to see some leaves turn gold again.


Peace and Blessings ya'll. Have an excellent week.