142. Even crazier than Friday.

Go buy John Mayer's new album. I guess you can't really call it new...but I'm going to do it just for the sake of the purchase. He did a concert in LA and decided to record it. I haven't bought a cd in a very long time. There are only a few artists in which I will buy an entire album for. Good music needs to be bought. Hell, all music needs to be bought. But good cd's deserve to be bought. John Mayer is most definitely one of my favorite artists of all time. He is completely raw. His lyrics are genius. Continuum was one of my favorite albums. His very first album was very very nice as well with classics like "your body is a wonderland" and "my stupid mouth". Anywho the cd contains 23 acoustic tracks that take you through his first album all the way until his brand new stuff. He also throws in covers by Tom Petty and a few hidden tracks that were never released on CDs. Bottom line...go get this. Go now.

Today was so very surprising. I think I can use surprising and have it be legit. I needed this surprise. Good things happen to good people. I believe that. All in good time. This was necessary and I am so very thankful. I cant put into words what this means. My best friends in the entire world are miles and miles and miles away. Yet...I feel them right next to me...and vice versa. Next time we blink I do believe that I will be within reach. Thank you, B for the nice surprise. A thank you isn't even close to being enough...but it will have to do on here for this. Strongest person I know. Three more weeks.




I want to stand on the edge of the cliff and look all the way down. I want to then look up, to the left, the right...and smile in awe. I have the entire world at my finger tips. Nothing will stop me unless I let it. I have the power. Power is such a strange word with such a negative connotation in today's society. I use it loosely. Think of it as a ball of string that I am balancing in between my index finger and thumb. Gives a nice visual to having the whole world on a string. If you believe...you are endless. You are faithful, you are true, you are raw. If you understand the capacity of another...you are ready to share the knowledge. If you can honestly be kind to each person you meet along the way...your position is higher than you think. They are fighting a battle in which you know nothing about. Every single person is dealing with an internal conflict. A book character is the best way to describe a human. Each book character has an outside conflict in which everyone sees. The gossip...the wear and tear on the body...the voice and words that escape the mouth. Then...there is an internal conflict. This is a battle in which each person is dealing with on their own. Each night before a human lays down to sleep...reflection is had whether we would like it or not. Try and grasp that understanding is still misinterpreted. I want to live in a place where everyone quietly understands battles...and boldly embraces the fact that struggles just might in fact give us the character that embodies the very essence of who we stand to be. Stand to be something. Stand.