143. I did it.

Well...scratch that.

I've done many things lately. That's what I'm going to blame the lack of posts on. I try and write. Most days I succeed. This place just so happens to be the last place that I place words upon. But I am here now...ever ready to spill the last of what my heart and mind has been feeling for the past few weeks.

First things first...I passed math. Not a big deal to you....huuuuuge deal to me. I'm officially done with DVC. I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of myself for getting in there and getting what needed to be done...done. Now I am moving on. I feel like the best is yet to come. That's how I always feel. It is so very true almost all of the time. I guess I can also say that the best is right here...right now.

Second...things are winding down. School is finished for the summer and I have one more week of work left. It has flown by. I remember my first day of work this summer and first days of classes. Its crazy how time waits for absolutely no one. You better have a nice seatbelt handy because to not be buckled in for the time ride is pure insanity. I will finally have some time to myself. This should be interesting. I'm not a girl with a whole lot of time on her hands so when the opportunity arises...I never know how to take it. As my father puts it, "the fly by night in you comes back around"...whatever the hell that means. Ehh I know what it means. Haha.

Third...I've been cleaning my room. I got rid of pounds of clothes, shoes (yes..shoes), and junk from my drawers and closet. My room feels lighter and much more ready for the renovation that is about to take place in T minus seven days. I found a lot of old things while cleaning. Its wild what people will keep in order to savor memories and try and hold onto pieces that obviously were meant to stay behind. I kind of liked going through all of my old things. Letters, gifts, shirts, jackets...things that were so meaningful then...and are pure vapor now. I'm sure that was a good thing for me to lighten the load of Ashley. This girl has enough going on already...consider me lighter.

Fourth. While cleaning kaitlynn found some old notes and cards that we had written our parents for different holidays. Its so funny to see just how different her and I truly are, even from a young age. Take this for example:

Fathers day cards. 2nd grade. Cute and decorated on the front. Kait's has polka dots (given) and mine is random...probably depended on the day. The insides...

Kaitlynn: "Happy Father's Day. You do so much for us and I am so thankful. Happy Father's Day. Love, Kaitlynn."

Ashley: "Dear Daddy, you work this father's day...so next time...try and get it off. Love, Ashley."



Apparently I was bitter. No worries though...Kaitlynn made up for it by wishing my father a happy day...not once...but twice. (Doesn't she always seem to come through in the clutch?)

Fifth: 2 weeks...roughly. I couldn't be more thrilled. =] =] =]

Sixth: *Happy 17th Birthday Taylor. =] =] Little brother is growing up.


Finally. I suppose this summer has kind of put me feeling a little behind. Not in the sense that I'm lagging, being lazy, or even missing out. If anything I'm doing more than I've ever done. Taking 9 units and working 5 days a week is no joke. Its not truly the summer that everyone is idealizing over however I've made the most of what I've been given. I'm blessed. I'm thankful. I've been given opportunities that are endless and I take full advantage. The reason I say I feel behind is because I feel stagnant. I feel like doing the same thing over and over again has me placed in a position that is a little less than what I should be doing. I found myself comparing my whole being...to others around me. About where they are at in life...what they are doing...where they are staying. Then...I realized that there is absolutely no reason in comparing. Why should I compare myself to anyone? I was struggling. Prayer and writing did help. Then my main man came through. Victor sent me some strong words of encouragement. Here they are..

"doing the same thing every day....over and over...it makes you feel almost so simple compared to the complex world around you...but you cant compare yourself to anyone and anything else ..... see sometimes because you do the same thing over and over again you start to lose sight of how important what you do really is...to you!"

Just a piece that he gave me for my extra push letting me know that things are going to be just fine. He gave me a quote that I felt was necessary to add onto here...

"live your life today like most people wont....so you can live your life tomorrow like most people cant."








I see now that if I spend more time worrying about what others are achieving, I'm going to achieve less than what I would have if I just start doing me to the fullest. I am proud, I am focused, and I am blessed. Let the good times roll and I am ready to take on the world. Bring it on life...I now think know I can handle ya.